Moments of peace for me are having my four dogs-watching my chickens run around free outside looking in the window at me-having the brightness of moon touch my soul-taking care of my birds and turtles.
On the flip side my dogs are a rowdy bunch, my chickens get killed by Hawks and raccoons, and the moon is not always out at night. I barely care for my birds and turtle.
i had the idea i was stabilised on drugs and whilst i took the drugs normal fit for work pushed like brain washing in this hostel decades ago, when i argued it was a symptom to be treated
now i'm facing the work capability assessment and need to prove illness, i have learnt the on drug cure isn't cure the hard way and now are elderly with a long out of work history, partly due to my illness been considered unfit for work until recently
i think the risk of suicide in young schitzos jutifys in doctors minds them building up unreasonable hopes
anyway as the homeless women said theres a cognitive dissonance and i'd say a massive one at that