
OddsocksUK
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I dont really know how to word a lot of this.. Much less do i quite know what im hoping to achieve but here goes. I feel like Im in a hole or more like a crater that it isnt possible to get out of..
I have no real friends. The few i have i feel like the second option, they only want to know when they need me n no ones there in return. Ontop of that i just dont feel like anyone would understand. I feel 100% alone with my problems and I wish i had someone to talk to whod understand. I guess theres not much point typing details unless this proves not to be a waste of time.. But as i said in the title, I feel like i had everything. I was happy. And now what i had I cant get back. Ever. And i feel like nothing will ever make me happy again. ive done things id always wanted to do, Pass my driving test for example. I dont enjoy driving its just empty like everything else i try to enjoy. Im stuck in a situation i dont wanna be in. I live in a dump, I have debt and my heads too bad right now to get off my ass and work, im too scared of the social implications. Im gaining weight and have even low confidence than i already did in part because im too scared to go anywhere without my car as an escape route. the main problem revolving around the past that i cant go back too is one of the biggest causes of how i feel and i really wish i had someone whod listen and understand. Im completely lost
Im not suicidal, but i do question what the point is anymore. I just feel like im doomed to an empty lonely existence where my dreams have came and been lost and theres nothing ahead of me but time and I can feel myself becoming more and more of a shell of the person i use to be daily.. Im 25 so looks like its gonna be a long haul ...
I have no real friends. The few i have i feel like the second option, they only want to know when they need me n no ones there in return. Ontop of that i just dont feel like anyone would understand. I feel 100% alone with my problems and I wish i had someone to talk to whod understand. I guess theres not much point typing details unless this proves not to be a waste of time.. But as i said in the title, I feel like i had everything. I was happy. And now what i had I cant get back. Ever. And i feel like nothing will ever make me happy again. ive done things id always wanted to do, Pass my driving test for example. I dont enjoy driving its just empty like everything else i try to enjoy. Im stuck in a situation i dont wanna be in. I live in a dump, I have debt and my heads too bad right now to get off my ass and work, im too scared of the social implications. Im gaining weight and have even low confidence than i already did in part because im too scared to go anywhere without my car as an escape route. the main problem revolving around the past that i cant go back too is one of the biggest causes of how i feel and i really wish i had someone whod listen and understand. Im completely lost
