- Oct 2, 2020
- Surrey, Uk
Killing someone? Honestly? I get rage, but I would never feel that extreme... I just wonder if you're missing a trick by not taking medication? It definitely can calm you down, as people on here have said. When I'm suffering from dysphoric irritability, I take Clonazepam, an anxiolytic which works directly on the nervous system. When you're enraged, your 'fight or flight mechanism' is in attack mode, which would mean your nerves would be firing excessively - so I assume that's why an anxiolytic would work to calm you down.For me dealing with irritability wouldn't be terrible being bipolar 2, but having aspd too complicates everything, it becomes very very difficult if not impossible to calm down.
I'm very good at hiding it.
Anger can last a long time, and being already prone to violence (cause I honestly don't care nor I see consequences) it doesn't help, everything becomes a risky trigger, since I don't have a brake.
Anger can also go away for a while and return two hours later, for the same reasons.
I don't take meds nor want them, the only thing that helps me in those moments is distract my brain with whatever possible,
videos, debates, music, ... pick one,
as well as working out, like push-ups and more.
It's the only thing that helps me to let off steam in a healthy way, and prevents me from killing someone.
I also found that quetiapine calmed my irritability too, when I first went on it, though I don't think it has that effect any more. But as you're not taking anything atm, it might be useful in a low dose for its sedative effect.
Just a couple of suggestions, but I realise you may not want to take drugs - it sounds from your post above as if you are against them, which is fine, but I do think they have their uses. We are struggling with an illness that is very difficult to combat without medication - and you have two conditions to deal with.
With best wishes, Ginger Kitten.