How do I love myself&find my identity?

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Dna11

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#1
HI!
I am new on here and extremely grateful I came across this site. I am in a scary very bad place in life currently. Firstly I haven’t been happy in five or more yrs now. I am 28 and have my entire drea career planned out which helped but, of course O do not have the funds in order for me too fulfill this dream. Anyways I do not know how to figure out too love myself again as well as find myself. I have immense self esteem problems and made a list for things to do or purchase. Especially for instance join a yoga studio again and try boxing. I feel like O have failed my life completely and I cannot even see any of the things truly happening. I am hunting for books about this as well as those that come with workbooks. Knowing myself it will force me too have to do all that is needed. this way I have a true shot at being genuinely happy again. FYI I suffer from ADD, anxiety (GAD&panic Disorder) Fibromyalgia, narcolepsy and insomnia. I can handle the rest and know what works for me too keep them at bay. The depression and anxiety though have put me over my edge, drained my spirituality/faith/strength and hope. I am becoming convinced that I will never feel happiness, excitement, full. I feel I won’t have friends again or a best friends at least, get married or even find a boyfriend. I know my mom will never stop being so codependent on me, it is too the point of legitimate insanity. My father doesn’t show or speak about emotions so I have not a single soul
 
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Orionar25

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#2
HI!
I am new on here and extremely grateful I came across this site. I am in a scary very bad place in life currently. Firstly I haven’t been happy in five or more yrs now. I am 28 and have my entire drea career planned out which helped but, of course O do not have the funds in order for me too fulfill this dream. Anyways I do not know how to figure out too love myself again as well as find myself. I have immense self esteem problems and made a list for things to do or purchase. Especially for instance join a yoga studio again and try boxing. I feel like O have failed my life completely and I cannot even see any of the things truly happening. I am hunting for books about this as well as those that come with workbooks. Knowing myself it will force me too have to do all that is needed. this way I have a true shot at being genuinely happy again. FYI I suffer from ADD, anxiety (GAD&panic Disorder) Fibromyalgia, narcolepsy and insomnia. I can handle the rest and know what works for me too keep them at bay. The depression and anxiety though have put me over my edge, drained my spirituality/faith/strength and hope. I am becoming convinced that I will never feel happiness, excitement, full. I feel I won’t have friends again or a best friends at least, get married or even find a boyfriend. I know my mom will never stop being so codependent on me, it is too the point of legitimate insanity. My father doesn’t show or speak about emotions so I have not a single soul
Firstly, i'm really sorry to hear you are suffering, I have also been feeling lost and without identity for years. I've been feeling the same way you have and I am currently turning my life around. So can you.

The best way to gain self esteem is to challenge yourself physically and mentally and push yourself out of your comfort zone a bit at a time. I would really recommend you force yourself to go to those boxing and yoga classes. Anything that gets you out of the house, active and socialising with other people is a really good thing. Loneliness is a horrible thing and it is so easy to let it swallow you whole when you are depressed and anxious.

What I find works is proving to yourself that you are work something, you may not believe it now but trust me, the inner demons get quieter and your inner determination and soul gets louder each time you challenge yourself and win. About you wanting a boyfriend too; don't be afraid to take a step back and learn to love yourself before loving someone else.

Hope all this helps, I wish you all the luck in the world.
 
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Dna11

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Truly thank you so so much for everything you said. You are absolutely right & I know I need to do or rather just force myself to do those things & once I move find a job but, super happy today I got a new psychiatrist who actually cares & I will also be seeing a therapist in the group!! BTW I am utterly in love with what you said “you’re inner demons get quieter & your inner determination & soul gets louder” definitely a top favorite quote! Also, yes I absolutely do not need to be with anyone right now. I gotta take this time too heal my mind,body and soul and especially what they say you can’t truly love someone else if you don’t yourself.

TRULY THANK YOU SO MUCH AGAIN 🖤🖤🖤🖤
 
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Orionar25

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Truly thank you so so much for everything you said. You are absolutely right & I know I need to do or rather just force myself to do those things & once I move find a job but, super happy today I got a new psychiatrist who actually cares & I will also be seeing a therapist in the group!! BTW I am utterly in love with what you said “you’re inner demons get quieter & your inner determination & soul gets louder” definitely a top favorite quote! Also, yes I absolutely do not need to be with anyone right now. I gotta take this time too heal my mind,body and soul and especially what they say you can’t truly love someone else if you don’t yourself.

TRULY THANK YOU SO MUCH AGAIN 🖤🖤🖤🖤
I'm so happy that you are getting the help you deserve :) keep fighting the good fight.