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emmaleemochizuki
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I always had disordered eating but I was about 15 when it spiralled into a full blown eating disorder.
It was a number of things that triggered it. I was starting to go through puberty and I was very uncomfortable with how my body was changing. I lost someone very important to suicide, and there's a lot of conflicting emotions about that. At the same time I was doing my GCSEs and stressing about exams, and my scholarship on hold. And there was a lot of other things too and all of that became a perfect 'recipe', and I was diagnosed with anorexia.
I'm almost 21 now, and it has been a long journey. As time goes on I realised that it was far more than just food and weight. In fact probably nothing really about that. I experienced a lot trauma when I was young and developed a lot of maladaptive coping mechanisms where eating disorder was one of them. The last six years was a lot of ups and downs. I have been sectioned, admitted multiple times to EDUs and acute wards. But slowly I am recovering. I am still very far from recovered and I know I might not ever get there, but working with my therapist, my psychiatrist, my CPN and everyone that was involved in my care, challenging what I fear the most, things have changed, and I have grown.
What is your story?
It was a number of things that triggered it. I was starting to go through puberty and I was very uncomfortable with how my body was changing. I lost someone very important to suicide, and there's a lot of conflicting emotions about that. At the same time I was doing my GCSEs and stressing about exams, and my scholarship on hold. And there was a lot of other things too and all of that became a perfect 'recipe', and I was diagnosed with anorexia.
I'm almost 21 now, and it has been a long journey. As time goes on I realised that it was far more than just food and weight. In fact probably nothing really about that. I experienced a lot trauma when I was young and developed a lot of maladaptive coping mechanisms where eating disorder was one of them. The last six years was a lot of ups and downs. I have been sectioned, admitted multiple times to EDUs and acute wards. But slowly I am recovering. I am still very far from recovered and I know I might not ever get there, but working with my therapist, my psychiatrist, my CPN and everyone that was involved in my care, challenging what I fear the most, things have changed, and I have grown.
What is your story?