- May 23, 2009
Hi guys. I'm new here, but I really need some support right now. Where to start...I've suffered from depression since I was 10 (probably even earlier, but I can't think about that). Back in 2002 I spent 6 months in a psychiatric hospital and I had some horrific ECT sessions. During two of these sessions I woke up whilst they were happening, completely paralysed, completely terrified. Since then, the anxiety has gradually got worse. It started with not being able to breathe and this has slowly got worse over the years. Now, in the last 18 months my Dad died, my Aunt died, my dog died (all of cancer) and my disabled Mum has been constantly in and out of hospital. I am her main carer and I'm also trying to hold down a full time job. Over the past couple of months the anxiety has got rapidly worse, so that now I'm having palpitations every day, sometimes all day every day, I constantly feel like my chest is being crushed, I'm having stomach problems, sweating and not sleeping. Some nights, not at all. My GP and psychiatrist have prescribed me diazepam, lorazepam, a beta blocker and a sleeping pill. This is on top of mirtazapine and lithium, which I was already taking. But none of them make it go away. It's unbearable, I'm even having trouble seeing my friends now. I can't stand it, I need to make it all go away, but nothing seems to help and I'm running out of options. Please, if anyone has any suggestions, please let me know. I think I would try anything right now.