- Jun 8, 2019
Growing up as a twin, I never had to socialise when I was younger. I remember when I was younger I was even scared to use the toilet at night because I thought I would be told off. But it meant that as I've gotten older, I've just avoided new experiences and it's left me with a fear of talking to people... Add (possibly? Verging on?) Emotionally abusive parents to the mix and you've got yourself a daughter who constantly apologises for everything because everything she does is a mistake. If you want to talk to someone, you're making a mistake if you say hello and you're making a mistake if you don't. Social anxiety is the terror of being judged and doing something wrong, and when you remember that through their eyes your interaction with them means next to nothing, that only encourages thoughts like "you're so selfish thinking you're so important" to pop up. I can't answer the door for fear of not knowing what to say. People are so unpredictable. I need a script, lol.