hospital rooms

dubblemonkey

dubblemonkey

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#1
just exactly when I believe I will never again see the inside of one?

honestly it's the worst experience ever

and I have lost count and I was never counting but if was counting I would admit that the last one was the second to worst one.

during a manic episode... the physicians in the ED have no clue what to do.

and I always try to educate them that if the pain is not visible?...

like blood and all sorts of damage.

putting me in a room all alone for 9 fucking hours is like agony... for my already seriously stretched mind.

bipolar mania and depression sometimes combines and the one or the other make no fucking sense...

and it sucks I just want to go home ...

and being tied to a bed and inability to move... for doing nothing wrong.

I never want to go back... this was just hours ago...perhaps a day I think.

it makes me want to get better so bad...!

but it happens again... it's not my fault but it feels like it is
 
dubblemonkey

dubblemonkey

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I really enjoy your signature (is that what it is?)

if it's ok with you?.. I like it alot

...all besides... (it continues to be a wonderful selection of words...and thankyou for them)

anyway... it was quite dramatic... when a few days ago.. my very mild mannered Psychiatrist
became frustrated with me.

as I became allergic again to yet another medication.

that took at least 2 months to adjust to and then suddenly ...oh dear.

even the mentally ill know when they are not quite right.

...and what I believe is my whole life's purpose?

to manage all by myself...

takes so much mental agony... BUT there are just enough moments in amongst all that confusion

...maybe just 1 moment.... then I know I can do it. whatever it is I had a gentle reminder... that I am capable.

thanks so much Fairy Lucretia