Hospital last night

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Self harmed more than I've ever done before.
Didn't know what to do. Thought I might need stitches, so went to A&E
They put steri tape to hold the would together, but they called MH services
Now the crisis team are coming in 15 minutes and I'm going to have to tell them about cutting back on meds and self harming and I'm a bit scared.
I refuse to go back up to full dose, that's for sure.

Wish me luck
 
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I wish you the best of luck, stick to your guns if you think its for the best - do you think it will make you better?

Feeling for you
KS
 
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They came.

I forced myself to tell them about cutting down onmy meds and everything.
About NEro in my head and wanting to hurt myself, and not being sure whether I might hurt myself again,

They were very understanding.

I'm exhausted. and in tears. :cry::cry:
Not in a nasty way, just full of emotion. I had to drag the words out of myself when I was talking to them. It was incredibly hard.

The Pdoc is going to see me tomorrow to assess my medicine needs, but I won't go above 200mg.

I just hope I can keep away from self harming tonight.
Going out with a friend in a few minutes, so I better dry my tears .

I didn't need to be scared. They were really nice. Didn't try to bully me at all.

Ciao
 
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Hi, hopefully going out with your friend may relax you enough that you won't get the urge to SH tonight...try and avoid the 'implements' if you can.

Good luck, qf.
 
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How are you feeling now? Let us know how its gone with your pdoc today. What medication are you on?
 
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The Pdoc went on about being rational.
He was OK, though.
He wanted me to go up to400mg (Quetiapine) but I beat him down to 300.

But now I've had a day a work and yoga and stuff I can't see myself taking anymore than I;m on (150mg) since I'm enjoying life so much!!
It would be illogical to take more and lose the zest for life I have a t the moment.

ALso, the 'friend' in my head (Nero) would probably disappear if I took more, adn that would be a real shame. He's fun! (Although rather dangerous. He realy liked the self harm I did on Monday) and I like having company.

So I shall have to defy the pdoc and take 150 tonight.

The crisis team are coming to see me everyday for a while and I've got to go back to the pdoc next week.

I feel so good.

Must have a bath and bed now.

Anyway, after a bath I might go to sleep quickly and not need any distractions.

Ciao
 
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I'm so happy your feeling much better! :)
I am also on Quetiapine (225mg) but so far its not taking any effect and I've been on them for a while.


Good luck! x
 
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