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I honestly don't know why I even use the internet to get help. It's all I got, and I do it to distract from my feelings, but it's pointless. And, the truth is people online are so often unhelpful, and uncaring, and judgmental. I've tried a lot to find someone to talk to, but I waste my time with idiots. The truth is a lot of people are idiots, and no one cares about your mental health. And I don't care how that sounds anymore.

I've had major life issues, and a major issue that has made the past months hard. I don't want to say here, because if I do say it it's better for me to explain one on one. And I really cannot find a single mental solution for these fucking issues. And you think people online will help me, or anyone in my family? No. And it's incredibly stupid and annoying to hear over and over that that's not true. But there's also so many other clichés and idiotic things people will say endlessly no matter how unhelpful.

I really want to die, and I'm hoping I find a way to soon. No it doesn't get better. 6 years later and I feel genuinely worse. And I'm also tired of stupid fucks that don't understand the issues I have.
 
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I’m sorry that you want to die. I can feel your anger and your frustration. I know that people on this forum work very hard and try their best to be helpful to others who are in your position. I’m sure it’s not always going to hit the mark because we are all only human and none of us are professionals, but we do try. I hope that before you make up your mind to die that you might consider other avenues of help or support available to you. Online forums provide a certain role and level
of service but they are certainly not the best or only option. xo, j
 
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I’m sorry that you want to die. I can feel your anger and your frustration. I know that people on this forum work very hard and try their best to be helpful to others who are in your position. I’m sure it’s not always going to hit the mark because we are all only human and none of us are professionals, but we do try. I hope that before you make up your mind to die that you might consider other avenues of help or support available to you. Online forums provide a certain role and level
of service but they are certainly not the best or only option. xo, j
The forum in comparison has been better. I meant I go on like sites and try to talk to people. But yeah also some people on the forum are out of their minds, but its better than most things. But still I don't think anyones tried to help me the way I want to be.

I cant find another way to get help. Dying sounds best to me.

Thanks anyways
 
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The forum in comparison has been better. I meant I go on like sites and try to talk to people. But yeah also some people on the forum are out of their minds, but its better than most things. But still I don't think anyones tried to help me the way I want to be.

I cant find another way to get help. Dying sounds best to me.

Thanks anyways
What way do you want to be helped by people?
 
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Hi beautifuldarkfsntasy,
I'm so sorry your feeling this way, many of us have felt the same.
Did therapy help if you tried it?
It can be hard to get help I know, however please keep fighting.
Do you have any hobbies/interests.
I think covid19 is making things worse for many of us.
I found gardening helped me as it's therapeutic.
I'm glad talking to us on here helps.
We care and do listen.
Hugs
 
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Hi beautifuldarkfsntasy,
I'm so sorry your feeling this way, many of us have felt the same.
Did therapy help if you tried it?
It can be hard to get help I know, however please keep fighting.
Do you have any hobbies/interests.
I think covid19 is making things worse for many of us.
I found gardening helped me as it's therapeutic.
I'm glad talking to us on here helps.
We care and do listen.
Hugs
Haven’t got therapy.

I want to end it though I have too many issues and I cannot take it
 
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What way do you want to be helped by people?
Non cliche, listening, good advice. Not people blaming or saying that I haven’t seen the best of what life has to offer. Just I want someone to listen and not lie and tell me life is this great thing.
 
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Life can be really shit beautiful, it can also be brilliant ... and then shit again.
It’s not fair, and no one understands what you’re going through.
I found online chat rooms were frustrating when I was at my worst, when I found a therapist that was also annoying as I wanted answers.
But it did give me better understanding and the keys to figuring it out by myself. Xx
Maybe it’s worth giving it a go?
 
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Life can be really shit beautiful, it can also be brilliant ... and then shit again.
It’s not fair, and no one understands what you’re going through.
I found online chat rooms were frustrating when I was at my worst, when I found a therapist that was also annoying as I wanted answers.
But it did give me better understanding and the keys to figuring it out by myself. Xx
Maybe it’s worth giving it a go?

Well I have to do a lot to get it. I’m not in the position to get it rn
 
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LIfe is very difficult. I often feel like I want to die also. I keep on trying to live, but it is really difficult. I hope you can find a way. I haven't found it yet.
 

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