We who struggle with depression have a tendency to see the worst in ourselves and our situations. Depression absolutely destroys our sense of self worth and ability to construct a future. I bet there are qualities within you that I would kill to possess, and accomplishments I would be envious of.
Try to look at your depression as an actual disease or sickness that needs to be treated like any other before you can start feeling better.
hey, i know how you feel. right outside my girlfrinds house is a multistory carpark that looks onto a busy main road, theres been days if have to walk over a mile to get home from hers because i know i cant go near there without it tempting me. but its best to try and stay as positive as possable. it's hard to find your way through the darkness, and its hard to know what to believe but if you live by your heart and value the love you find then you'll have all you need