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Mosaic

Mosaic

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hi,

i am 17, with Asperges' syndrome for which a discription can be given if you request it :)

i don't know when it truely started, but recently i have had problems with a multitude of things.

firstly i seem to be down all the time, which is the starting point, i dont know what triggers this and it makes things hell for me :( i know this may be depression

secondly, i don't get voices in my head but more like provocative thoughts, thoughts of Self harming and Suicide, and i know i cant describe it too deeply but, these thoughts are very serious.

I also have this urge that when someone does the most tiny thing which annoys me, and this cold be a light telling off, i feel like harming them quite badly, and if not going and doing something i would regret deeply...

the self harming and thoughts are bad, some nights i sit down and cry for what seems an eternity, while my Real self is fighting the urges that the other thoughts give me. sometimes i can split all thoughts down into three parts as if different people are controlling my mind, its hard to describe , but thats the best way i can put it.

i am now having a major problem controlling this, i am finding it harder by the day to hold everything back, to resist the temptation to harm me and others and i don't know what to do, where to go, what to say, or where to run :unsure:

it feels like the only way to go is what i have described, including suicide, but my good side says not too.

if anyone can help i would appreciate it so much words would be not enough to say thank you.

thank you for taking time to read this,
Mosaic
 
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antipsionic

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Hello Mosaic.

As I mentioned before my best friend has Aspergers. I know he can very angry and frustrated when people piss him off and get agressive thoughts. He also gets very depressed sometimes, he's like that at the moment, just staying in the house watching TV all the time.

Since your only seventeen, do you still live with your parents? Could you talk to them about the way you are feeling and see if they could help you see someone to help you.

Alternatively it might be a good idea to talk to your doctor, my friend did and is now getting help from a specialist Aspergers mental health team where we live, there may be one in Leicester.

Anyway sorry if I haven't been much help, I've been awake for over thirty hours, I just didn't want to leave you hanging on with no reply.

Take care mate.
 
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antipsionic

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Since I can't edit my post I just thought I'd add that if things get really bad and you feellike your on the verge of hurting yourself you could try ringing your local psychiatric crisis team or there may be a rethink or mind mental health helpline in your area you could ring for advice and support, sorry I don't know the services in Leicester any better.

Ok found the number for the Leicester Rethink Focus Line:

0800 027 2127
 
Mosaic

Mosaic

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hey thats fine, you have been of the help.

i can talk to my parents about it, however i have to think of the effects it will have on them. my dad has depression and i don't know if mother can cope with two of us... if i have depression..

my friend has now offered to go doctors with me but i dont know if they can do anything, i'm frightened in a sense of being locked up, which i know sounds stupid, but thats how i feel :cry:

and thanks for the number, that may come in useful :)

anyway thanks for the reply, much appreciated and wow! 30 hours is a time to be awake! i couldnt do it :tea:
 
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