- Jun 24, 2009
- Thornton, CO, U.S.
I have major depression and have been on psych meds for the past 9 years. While I feel like each drug will help me for a time, I always seen to plateau and have to move on to something else. Effexor has been the most solid one over the past 5-6 years. Besides Effexor, I'm on Lithium, Geodon, Wellbutrin and Trazedone to help me sleep. You may ask why I'm on a mood stabilizer and an anti-psychotic, well I had a bat $hit crazy psychiatrist who was convinced I was bi-polar (I'm not, I never get the highs) and put me on them and now I'm stuck on them. Any time I try to taper off them my moods or anxiety goes off kilter or out of controls. I see a new psychiatrist this morning and I'm going to tell her I, in general, have little to no faith in ever recovering from this illness and that I believe big pharmaceutical would rather keep me a sick, long-time patient/customer then help me recover from this depression. I also want subs for these two medicines 'cause I had the side effects. I just don't know how I'm going to get through this life always needing medications to keep me from losing my mind or offing myself. That thought is depressing enough...