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Is good that you are looking forward - whether to making mashed potatoes or to doing some things beyond your home. You will get there. Hope your poor mouth recovers to be pain free really soon and that this also helps how you feel generally. I get the tunnel vision from being inside so much too, horizons shrink so fast. Hope you find lovely things beyond your door xx
 
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Thanks so much, Write.

Sometimes my aspirations seem like mirages. I can see them up ahead a bit, but never arrive, or only with far more time and energy than seems reasonable.

I have to get up and rebuild some strength beginning tomorrow. This convalescence has left me weak. I finally got a restless burst and emptied the trash can in here.

Tomorrow I will return to keeping up the dishes.

One "mirage" reached is that I have regained my ability to read books. I had lost that for a long while which was inconceivable as I have been an avid reader all my life. I caved into curiosity and bought myself my own birthday present of the "tell all" book Fire & Fury that has stirred so much controversy about Trump and the White House. I really expected it to read like a tabloid but such is not the case. And so far, it is not mean spirited. (I have a kindle..so instant gratification).

I have thought of how much my correspondences mean to me. I make a difference in the lives of those 2 young ladies.

I ordered red panties for one of them today..carrying on my mom's valentine tradition.

Yeah, I am hungry all the time. I am going to have to do some real work planning things I can eat and that are filling and nourishing.

I have been nodding off to sleep sitting here quite often. I won't take a painkiller tomorrow and see if that is what has caused it (mixed with my klonopin)

Back to my book and I think another soup.
 
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Thank you for the perspective regarding looking forward to things. Very astute and I will remember that and try to incorporate it.

I got 9 hours sleep last night! phenomenol!

I am working on the dishes now. Some loaded, others soaking.

I have a grandaughter, my deceased son's daughter. I have been kept out of her life always but we have been awkwardly re-connecting. It isn't easy, especially for her. But now she (we) have a new baby boy.

I had been sending things for him every month. Today she sent me his photo of him in his John Deere bib overalls and cowboy booties that we bought him. I so appreciate it. just had to boo hoo a little bit, then immediately post it on my Facebook. David is printing out a hard copy for me to frame and I am sending one to her mother/his grandmother (she is my penpal). She will be so tickled. I was already able to send a digital one on her email.

I need to take the time to eat something now.

I don't know where the day has gone but don't quite have the ooomph I had for a short while earlier.

but I am listening to write and am going to work on more frequent smaller achievements.
 
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I made time to read last night and then went to bed at the same time as night before. I slept 7 1/2 hours but I had the foggy headache when I got up that I did not have when I got more sleep yesterday.

The dishwasher is full and running. I will scour the sinks a bit later. No trashcans to be emptied.

I am on pins and needles waiting to hear from daughter (in law) re:photo. Sometimes there is a time lag on emails.

David got up in a bad mood about having to go out and pay bills. Makes me want to go hide in bed and take a nap already but I won't. I will stay up until he gets home. I just checked and my payment for kindle unlimited has gone through. Good, I do not want to be telling David when he gets home that I need that.
I spent extra this month but I have no remorse. I hardly ever shop. He often does.

I have started a load of laundry. His things. It was closest at hand.

I am going to phone him about bringing home some takeout. bet he is grumbly about it but...we will see. I have been eating super cheap with canned soups and jello.

edit: he was perfectly nice about it. I can eat the country fried steak and biscuits and gravy from Bojangles. The country fried steak is nasty truth be told but I will dip it in gravy as I can eat it and am craving meat. Other than that, he is on his way home.
I hope he wins on his game, that will improve his mood.
 
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A marvelous development, David has been emptying the dishwasher promptly and without being reminded. I really hated and resented having to remind him every day, so this is a wish come true.

Sinks are empty and scoured. Not caught up until I clear off and wash down countertops.

Just now put load of laundry in dryer. Planning to start another load in a little while.

I totally blew my sleep schedule last night. I re-discovered Edward R Hamilton books, a discount book vendor with significantly lower shipping costs than amazon. Altho I discovered this morning that David has amazon prime thus free shipping. OMG, how much money I could have saved each month!

I screwed up and sent Destiney's book to the county jail. shit. I did go into my settings and deleted that address.

So David re-ordered that book and the one I wanted to send her for her birthday but didn't want the cost with the shipping. So he got both for what I have been paying for 1 almost.

The photo did not go through. I re-sent it and think I got it right this time.

I am going to work at filling some trashcans today. That same pile by my chair.

Right now I am going to catch up on news.

I feel like I am forgetting important things?
 
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I am doing dishes tho not so promptly on automatic as I was before. It's ok, it will work back out.
Emptying trash cans.

I cannot recall the last time the GERD had me vomiting in my sleep. that is huge and magnificent. Maybe it is the soup diet I have been on? But I should have gotten sick last night. I ate a big bowl of ice cream then David made super size hamburger patties with barbq sauce on them and I ate 3 of them! I was so full it hurt but they were so damned tasty.

I am sleeping better. so much better than the waking every 3-5 hours. Not quite getting enough sleep, so am taking a regular time nap. Not crashing out and way oversleeping, as has been the case in the past.

I am reading. The recent school shooting in Florida has hit me very hard and I have been reading everything I can find on kindle unlimited. I can't afford to buy any of the better studies right now, but they will still be there.
I am SO angry at the way the politicians and media portray the problem as mental illness. Stigmatizing and overlooking the real facts, studies and issues.

Overall housekeeping remains stagnant. One day soon, I will do something extra.

My mom spent the last 2 nights wandering around the house going from room to room looking for home.
I have gradually been letting her go in my mind. She isn't there anymore, maybe not all the time, but she would not want to be like this.

Our political news is blowing up all over the place. I have to get my subscription to the Washington Post back! Streaming, I get all the news late.

time for dishes & etc.

have a great day!
 
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I planned to do housework today, but I've not achieved very much.
Husband said he'd go round with the hoover, and he did, however I've just gone back around with the broom because he did such a half arsed job. Which is why I end up doing everything around here.
I've done a mountain of washing because it has built up, so I've done it and will take it all to the launderette to use the dryers.
I did get out in the garden as it was sunny, but my spade is broken and I need to shift some mud. A fork didn't quite work! But I did a little bit.
I'm not sure what it was i was actually planning to do today, because I seemed to forget it all this morning.
 
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am glad things feeling better physically and sleeping wise tilta. Completely agree about the mh angle on the awful shooting, is lazy political diversion from the gun conversation imo.
very sad about your mum, I feel for you xx
 
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thank you write & exyz!

Sis called about mom. Dad had asked her to come help him make some arrangements. Sis and I have been puzzled and upset about Dad's unwillingness to treat pain. Mom told sis she prays every night to die because of the pain.....so they went to the dr yesterday and are going to FINALLY begin pain management.
Also need a caretaker to come to the house. Dad is no spring chicken and is worn out.
So glad sis contacted me as I have grudges about being left out on stuff.
I had stopped the letters as I thought they were confusing and distressing her due to issues with lucidity but sis says Write! and she love cards. So I went to go compose a letter and my office app is totally messed up, I can't get into it...hope David can fix it. I have so many documents in there.

Lately I have been thinking that I want a different life. Not any wild adventures...tho I do love those, but just in how I live my daily life. I am going to be working on that.

I am really grateful that I am reading again. I have been studying up on school shootings.
 
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I got up in a good mood. Slept well. Felt like I would like to all the time. rested and with some energy. Unloaded the dishwasher and have dishes soaking to reload.
I have had my fave hot cereal with chocolate chips for breakfast. (great new habit!)
Wrote and sent a happy birthday email to one of my dearest correspondents.

Then got more bad news about mom. Sent Dad a message. He hasn't talked to me about any of this. I tried to reach out with love.

Just breathing now. My anxiety is growing. I took a klonopin and it will make me tired.

I want to work at putting the house in order. That is going to be so important when I return home from the funeral that is looming at the horizon.

But I also really really want to take a nap.
 
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I wished for my life to be different and it has become so, not thro any plan or purposefulness of mine.

I have always struggled with eating regularly. Since the soft foods, my appetite has returned and I at least each brunch and dinner, if not the 3 meals a day-which I have been doing as well. I will not claim to have become a health conscious eater nevertheless, this is a significant improvement.

I am dealing with my mom's impending death and reaching out to her as much as I can.

But my mind is totally blown by my daughter. We have been estranged for about the last 12 years. I have never understood why. She did not trust me and had great hostility towards me. I didn't get it then and I don't get it now. But suddenly she has done a 180. I am joyous. I take so much delight in her. I don't even feel wary that she will flip on me at any time as has happened before. Nor am I walking on eggshells.

I haven't focused on housekeeping..it has slipped only a little.

I have a new correspondent who really makes me think. and am still keeping up the other two.

I have gotten more support here lately than I have ever had in my life. It's astounding. It is healing.
 
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I wanted change and I have it in spades.

My daughter remains close, we have a phone date for tomorrow. Minimum time for her is 2 hours. I am also reading a book by a favorite therapist of hers and counseling her. My memory issues are problematic. I have read the first 1/2 of the book. Then went on to my next endeavor, which included reading a different book and other research and now my recall of the book to discuss with daughter is markedly absent.

My new correspondence is very favorable. He is of superior intelligence and we share similar interests in given topics. I find it very compelling. I have thrown tons of substance at him today...which includes our coordinated reading of the same book but not limited to it. My mind is engaged in a way I have very much missed for far, far too long.

I am committed to David to keep things well between us and share yet more other interests.

I am thrilled beyond measure that I am able and am reading again. And reading meaty books rather than short easy pass times.
Received 3 more in the mail today that I was able to buy on deep discount. 2 are very serious works. 1 is for entertainment.

David and I watched the new dvd "Darkest Hour" which commences with the vote of no confidence and resignation of Neville Chamberlain. Highly recommend it.

Can my mind hold all these separate interests & topics and keep up? I feel a little as if I were in university again.

The other 2 correspondences consist primarily of me offering support.

And I am still a news junkie.

Housekeeping has slipped and is now static. But I am feeling better about it and believe I will gradually progress without it being my primary focus. This is a true victory over the way I was raised.

I still play my games.

And I do get bored and impatient waiting for others to respond.

Still working on sleep schedule. Still have daily headaches.

Appmt with pdr tomorrow.

Mom is stable. Is now able to use a walker for short distances. Has times of mental clarity. In the nursing home.

Trying to pace myself due to fear of crashing. I don't feel high or hyper. But am wary due to past patterns.
 
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Why is feeling well so fleeting?

I had the consequences of having had GI issues, staying up way too late waiting for that to pass and then waking far far too soon.

I felt so miserable in every respect.

Today so far has been a day of rest. As I do have tension and headaches all the time.

Took a klonopin and went back to bed to rest. I would have liked to have slept well, that did not happen. But I did rest.

I am trying to relax into reading my fun mystery book. Can't figure out how to turn off streaming tv. aha, just figured out how using a different remote. whew I need the peacefulness.

I need to create time and space for peacefulness regularly. I have gotten used to all the hyper-stimulation. sort of used to it, I should say.

altho I guess I do check out by taking naps pretty often but then wake to the same level of intensity.
I think it has been bothering David too. So he will appreciate turning the noise box off too.

I am going to take an extra klonopin and then read. I took headache powders.

I picked this mystery because the main character has bipolar. Tho I don't know if it will be accurately portrayed and we do have different experiences.

Wishing every one well!
 
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