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Jh9994
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Hello everyone,
Let me tell you a story... It started only few months ago.. I got HOCD.. I'm a female who is 19..it was a nightmare because I have never thought about being with a woman.. I didn't know how it started it just started.. There has never been a day I didn't cry.. I couldn't handle the compulsions.. It is a nightmare... I couldn't talk to my own best friends.. I was ready to do anything to get my old self back.. To stop getting anxiety I stopped watching a lot of shows and movies that I liked... It is a really bad thing that I don't want my worst enemy to have it... This ocd slowly developed into suicidal thoughts.. I didn't feel any emotion.. It was like I didn't have any will to live...i thought it was a high time I see a professional... And then.. I was reading HOCD recovery stories.. That's when I came across the word Tocd and gender dysphoria .. Which sent me into a downfall.. I don't want to be a male.. I always wanted to marry man (even now)... I started thinking about my past like when I wanted to be a male.. No I have never had thoughts like that.. Can someone please help me what to do.. Is it common.. Or am I transitioning... I'm realllllllllly scared because I don't want to... I want my old self back..
Thank you.
Let me tell you a story... It started only few months ago.. I got HOCD.. I'm a female who is 19..it was a nightmare because I have never thought about being with a woman.. I didn't know how it started it just started.. There has never been a day I didn't cry.. I couldn't handle the compulsions.. It is a nightmare... I couldn't talk to my own best friends.. I was ready to do anything to get my old self back.. To stop getting anxiety I stopped watching a lot of shows and movies that I liked... It is a really bad thing that I don't want my worst enemy to have it... This ocd slowly developed into suicidal thoughts.. I didn't feel any emotion.. It was like I didn't have any will to live...i thought it was a high time I see a professional... And then.. I was reading HOCD recovery stories.. That's when I came across the word Tocd and gender dysphoria .. Which sent me into a downfall.. I don't want to be a male.. I always wanted to marry man (even now)... I started thinking about my past like when I wanted to be a male.. No I have never had thoughts like that.. Can someone please help me what to do.. Is it common.. Or am I transitioning... I'm realllllllllly scared because I don't want to... I want my old self back..
Thank you.