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Very much so. I have been feeling like this for so long now, it just feels like it gets worse when people say 'how you feel now is temporary' & I'm so exhausted from it. I feel like I've lost all my motivation & passion in life, I feel like I cannot function most of the time. I'm terrified I will never get out of this 😭
 
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Hello and welcome. Have you seen your GP about your depression to see what options are available to you?
 
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Hi & thank you. Yes, many times (5 days ago was the last time) & I have been having CBT for almost a year now.
 
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Hello and welcome. Have you seen your GP about your depression to see what options are available to you?
Hi & thank you. Yes, many times (5 days ago was the last time) & I have been having CBT for almost a year now.
 
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Are you depressed?
Very much so. I have been feeling like this for so long now, it just feels like it gets worse when people say 'how you feel now is temporary' & I'm so exhausted from it. I feel like I've lost all my motivation & passion in life, I feel like I cannot function most of the time. I'm terrified I will never get out of this 😭
 
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Are you taking any medications Nelly?
 
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Are you taking any medications Nelly?
I am just about to start some again... I dont know how much difference its going to make as I've had so many different ones, the GP has prescribed me ones I had 10 years ago as theres no others left to try.. I hope they do make a difference but I'm really not feeling optimistic about it.
 
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Are there tangible reasons why you're struggling right now? Problems that are wearing you down?

Do you have support around you Nelly? Partner...parents..friends etc
 
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Are there tangible reasons why you're struggling right now? Problems that are wearing you down?

Do you have support around you Nelly? Partner...parents..friends etc
I think there are so many reasons, I've struggled with depression/anxiety for a long time but for the past 2 years it's got incredibly worse, lots of life events have impacted on that too. But I usually have a bad 'phase' & manage it (not without difficulty but I do it); this time however, it's been long while since I felt like I am able to function.

I have my partner who is the one I usually turn to, but I feel as though I am burdening him too much now. Hes woke up today just to see me crying, as he does most weekends. it was his birthday yesterday & I made very little effort for it like I usually do. I feel like this is a very unfair situation for him.

I have my mum also but she has so much going on I cannot keep burdening her either.

I am at a loss of what to do anymore. I would do anything to feel somewhat like myself again!

Thank you for your reply Lunar
 
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So glad you're here - full of people who understand because they've been through this too.

Have you found any coping mechanisms that work for you?

I have to force myself out to walk...I feel emotionally stronger and brighter after a brisk, twenty minute walk.

What would usually make you feel stronger and better?
 
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So glad you're here - full of people who understand because they've been through this too.

Have you found any coping mechanisms that work for you?

I have to force myself out to walk...I feel emotionally stronger and brighter after a brisk, twenty minute walk.

What would usually make you feel stronger and better?
I used to have favourite movies I could lost in, that's not a good strategy any longer because it no longer works & just keeps me unmotivated. I'm not sure what else I can do. I try meditation but get frustrated very easily with it, but I keep trying.

I also have trichotillomania so going out is made even harder at the moment as I worry about that so much.

I would even feel better if I could just drive my car from a to b one day & think 'wow i didn't wish for a crash on that journey' I cannot remember the last time I didn't think that.
 
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I have anxiety and depression, too. I can deal with the depression, and medicine helps, but when anxiety starts up it feels impossible to cope with both.
Do you struggle with anxiety a lot, or would you say it’s mostly depression?
 
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Is the CBT through Steps?

Usually, they keep checking your mood scores and are fully aware if you're going downhill instead of improving and alter treatment your accordingly.

Despite the exhaustion of probably feeling you've 'said it all before' to your doctor, you will need to keep making appointments and push until you have a combination of support that works for you...I know different meds are on the horizon but if CBT isn't helping you, perhaps counselling or psychiatry would.

:hug: x
 
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I have anxiety and depression, too. I can deal with the depression, and medicine helps, but when anxiety starts up it feels impossible to cope with both.
Do you struggle with anxiety a lot, or would you say it’s mostly depression?

I certainly struggle with both, on an equal level I would say but I think if my anxiety didn't exist my depression would be no where near so bad. Thank you for asking, my anxiety is much worse than it has been but I think the depression & suicidal thoughts feels so intense all of the time, I mostly focused on that when posting.

Does anything help when you feel like that with your anxiety?
 
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Is the CBT through Steps?

Usually, they keep checking your mood scores and are fully aware if you're going downhill instead of improving and alter treatment your accordingly.

Despite the exhaustion of probably feeling you've 'said it all before' to your doctor, you will need to keep making appointments and push until you have a combination of support that works for you...I know different meds are on the horizon but if CBT isn't helping you, perhaps counselling or psychiatry would.

:hug: x
No its through the talking change but they do the same thing. My therapist has said to me that my scores are not changing, so questioned our work together. He is a very good therapist & I feel it COULD help but I think there is too much for me for any of it to help enough. However, I don't want to stop going because then I will feel as though I am getting no help & no one would be acknowledging it.
 
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No, you're right - don't think about stopping anything but certainly build upon it by adding additional layers of help and coping mechanisms.
 
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No, you're right - don't think about stopping anything but certainly build upon it by adding additional layers of help and coping mechanisms.
Well I'm sure I would have had my lot with all the sessions I've had - they only offer 6-12 but I've been there 10 months now so assume it will come to an end soon.

Thank you for your replies luna
 
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Does anything help when you feel like that with your anxiety?
The only thing I’ve found that helps with anxiety are benzodiazepines. Xanax if you are getting panic attacks, or Klonopin (I’m on now) for generalized constant anxiety.
 
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