- Mar 23, 2019
Just so desperate to feel alive again
Very much so. I have been feeling like this for so long now, it just feels like it gets worse when people say 'how you feel now is temporary' & I'm so exhausted from it. I feel like I've lost all my motivation & passion in life, I feel like I cannot function most of the time. I'm terrified I will never get out of thisAre you depressed?
I am just about to start some again... I dont know how much difference its going to make as I've had so many different ones, the GP has prescribed me ones I had 10 years ago as theres no others left to try.. I hope they do make a difference but I'm really not feeling optimistic about it.Are you taking any medications Nelly?
I think there are so many reasons, I've struggled with depression/anxiety for a long time but for the past 2 years it's got incredibly worse, lots of life events have impacted on that too. But I usually have a bad 'phase' & manage it (not without difficulty but I do it); this time however, it's been long while since I felt like I am able to function.Are there tangible reasons why you're struggling right now? Problems that are wearing you down?
Do you have support around you Nelly? Partner...parents..friends etc
I used to have favourite movies I could lost in, that's not a good strategy any longer because it no longer works & just keeps me unmotivated. I'm not sure what else I can do. I try meditation but get frustrated very easily with it, but I keep trying.So glad you're here - full of people who understand because they've been through this too.
Have you found any coping mechanisms that work for you?
I have to force myself out to walk...I feel emotionally stronger and brighter after a brisk, twenty minute walk.
What would usually make you feel stronger and better?
I have anxiety and depression, too. I can deal with the depression, and medicine helps, but when anxiety starts up it feels impossible to cope with both.
Do you struggle with anxiety a lot, or would you say it’s mostly depression?
No its through the talking change but they do the same thing. My therapist has said to me that my scores are not changing, so questioned our work together. He is a very good therapist & I feel it COULD help but I think there is too much for me for any of it to help enough. However, I don't want to stop going because then I will feel as though I am getting no help & no one would be acknowledging it.Is the CBT through Steps?
Usually, they keep checking your mood scores and are fully aware if you're going downhill instead of improving and alter treatment your accordingly.
Despite the exhaustion of probably feeling you've 'said it all before' to your doctor, you will need to keep making appointments and push until you have a combination of support that works for you...I know different meds are on the horizon but if CBT isn't helping you, perhaps counselling or psychiatry would.
Well I'm sure I would have had my lot with all the sessions I've had - they only offer 6-12 but I've been there 10 months now so assume it will come to an end soon.No, you're right - don't think about stopping anything but certainly build upon it by adding additional layers of help and coping mechanisms.