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sluisga
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Just 'came out' of the mental illness closet so to speak.
Anyway, last year I had a breakdown which resulted in me smashing the living room window and trying to get out (the house door was locked).
I was admitted into a psychiatric ward for 2 weeks and then off work for 3.5 months. Was on two different medications (olandsopine up to 20mg down to 10mg and then aripiprazole 10mg) which I weened myself off after taking those different meds for an 8 month period without my psychiatrist's knowledge. He was very dissaproving when I told him (it was the only form of control I had on my own illness), but I was fed up of being an emotionless zombie and didn't think they were needed any more as I believed my case to be very acute.
I was never given a specific diagnosis, per se. But did receive CBT treatment (cognitve behavioural therapy) for about 12 sessions, maybe less and I found them extreamly helpful. More than any of the doctors and nurses that treated me in the ward, at home or in the day clinic.
During my period of illness, I went from 90kg to 125kg or even 135kg in weight. This is likely through the excess hunger pangs and emotional fulfilment and free time available whilst off sick. (what do you do for 3+ months off sick???)
I have since found the excess weight helpful when weightlifting as I now have more mass than before to shift more and lift heavier weights. Something good came from the weight gain
I don't consider myself to have any metal health problems now as I have been supported very well during the ill period by my family, friends and staff at work.
Thought I'd join this site to see what it's about and check out the forums.
Anyway, last year I had a breakdown which resulted in me smashing the living room window and trying to get out (the house door was locked).
I was admitted into a psychiatric ward for 2 weeks and then off work for 3.5 months. Was on two different medications (olandsopine up to 20mg down to 10mg and then aripiprazole 10mg) which I weened myself off after taking those different meds for an 8 month period without my psychiatrist's knowledge. He was very dissaproving when I told him (it was the only form of control I had on my own illness), but I was fed up of being an emotionless zombie and didn't think they were needed any more as I believed my case to be very acute.
I was never given a specific diagnosis, per se. But did receive CBT treatment (cognitve behavioural therapy) for about 12 sessions, maybe less and I found them extreamly helpful. More than any of the doctors and nurses that treated me in the ward, at home or in the day clinic.
During my period of illness, I went from 90kg to 125kg or even 135kg in weight. This is likely through the excess hunger pangs and emotional fulfilment and free time available whilst off sick. (what do you do for 3+ months off sick???)
I have since found the excess weight helpful when weightlifting as I now have more mass than before to shift more and lift heavier weights. Something good came from the weight gain
I don't consider myself to have any metal health problems now as I have been supported very well during the ill period by my family, friends and staff at work.
Thought I'd join this site to see what it's about and check out the forums.
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to the forum. It's good to hear that you seem to have come through the other side of your breakdown. I expect the weight gain was partly due to olanzapine, it's notorious for weight gain. But you've put it to positive use and that's great. I know the feeling about what do you do when off sick for 3.5 months - I've been off for 2 months, having problems going out of the house on my own, and I'm getting really fed up.