Hi

[papillon]

I usually check out all the other intros because i'm so anxious as to what write. But i'm just gonna try and put down how my life is...

I'm Steve, i'm 22. I have no friends, no social life, i work full time in a steady if extremely unexciting job and have since i was 16.

I've always been a loner since i was in high school, and never socialised with my school friends, because i was so scared of socialising of any sort, and so lost all contact after a couple of years. So completely friendless since i was around 16/17 ish.

The idea of going to college and university just never occured to me, it was just too scary for me in my teens, so i shut it all out and hid away in my room. I was always lonely but i just couldn't face people.

I met my ex at work, but I was recently dumped by my ex which hit me really hard, it was about 5 months ago but it feels like it was just last week. I focused too much on her, and i know feel so lost in my life. I have done nothing but go to work come home and go to bed for months. I don't have any motivation for life, i have virtually no interests at all. I don't want to give anything a go to see if i like it. I can't explain why, but everything just feels like a waste of time doing it.

It's a useless existence i live, i'll go to work tomorrow, come home go to bed and do it all again the next day just wondering what do i do? I'm lost basically...without answers. I've not been to the doctors for any sort of diognosis, i know i'm depressed at least and it's as rough as heck! and has got worse since i was younger

Hello all...hope it doesn't sound like riddles!
Steve

 

[shaun3210]

Hi Steve welcome to the forum

A good place to start would be to go and have a chat with your GP about how you are feeling and how you are isolating yourself

 

[amongxthexashes]

Hi Steve, I'm Angel.. welcome! I just joined too. And could definetly relate to what you said, I hope you don't mind my adding this.. but yeah, no friends either (well i do, but they're in TN--long story) and I just get so lonely. I don't even work! Dropped out of school because of depression and anxiety and now I want to take some college courses but I'm too scared of the social situation. I have very few interests as well and my days are soooo long because I don't have enough to fill them with but you just gotta keep looking, trying new things, eventually you will find something! Even if it's just something as simple as being out in nature. Depression could be what's causing this lack of joy. So on that note I'd say definetly check in with a doctor. Maybe get on an anti-depressant and start some individual or to help you socialize maybe some group therapy? And if you ever need a friend or someone to talk to feel free to message me.

 

[Apotheosis]

Hello papillon, & Welcome to the Forum.

 

[keepsafe]

Welcome to you Both

I agree with Shaun - a good starting place would be with your g.p. - if it;s difficult for you - which it will be ( it was for me anyway) print off your post here and take it on the appointment.

Good luck and take care
KS

 

[papillon]

hi all, thanks for the welcoming replies...


i'm really scared of seeing a doc, i don't want to be put on meditcation, i really need therapy or counseling of some sort...i think...well i don't know what i need actually. I'm just weary of where it all leads after i see a doctor, i know anything i can do is better than just sitting on my backside and getting worse, i'm just plain scared i guess.

Hey amongxthexashes, i have been thinking about going to college i things college is a little bit different to college over here but anyway...I would have to do it next year as it's a bit late now as it starts in september. I'd be 23 though, and i have no idea what i would study. By the same token i don't particulary like my job now, and know i could have done something different if i had gone on to college and university so i have to try something else. Feel like i'm running out of time and i have no ideas on what i would like to study towards

 

[*Sapphire*]

Hi Papillon

And to the forum.

Many GP practices offer a free counselling service to their patients. That's why it might be worth having a chat with them so you can get referred.

GPs methods of treating depression are begining to change, they are not always so keen on doling out medication, many offer counselling instead of, or on top of it.

Perhaps when you have done a little soul searching in your counselling and perhaps learn to manage your anxiety better you will have more of an idea of the sort of course you'd like to take.

If you haven't got any A'Levels or FE qualification you can take an Access or foundation course to get into Uni. It can take less time than doing A'Levels, and is aimed at mature students.

I went to college at 22 yrs (for the second time), so I know how you feel, but I was far from the oldest on my course!

With regards to University, many mature students are at university, in many courses the mature students out number the ones fresh from college or sixth form. Alot of people take time out to do a bit of travelling, earn some money, get some life experience before going to University, it is a very common thing to do.

You are never too old for Uni, I heard an 80 year old graduated with a degree a few years ago. Just goes to show that it's never too late.

Try not to worry about going to your GP, if they offer meds, you can say no, and tell them you'd like counselling instead, and see what they say.
They might refer you to an anxiety management course too, many health authorities run them, they are quite popular, and again you will realise you are far from alone with this.

I hope that helps

 

[papillon]

thanks for the welcome.

I had some good advice. I now need to pluck up the courage to see my gp.

The whole idea of going back into education has given me a bit of a lift, and the Access to HE seems very interesting. And i've found out i'd be entitled to have my courses fees paid for as i've only gone to GCSE level before. Hopefully i can get there and start next year when i'm in a more stable frame of mind.

thanks.
Steve