- Feb 5, 2009
Hello everyone, just joined today because I really need to talk to others that understand and go through the same things. I've battled depression and anxiety and possibly a minor version of bi-polor on and off for quite some time and I feel like sometimes I'm falling apart. I wish I could just be balanced but my mind misfires and it drives me crazy! I just recently had a baby 7 months ago and its wonderful of course, still adjusting as a new parent but I wouldn't change having him for anything. The weirdest thing is when I was pregnant I felt the best I've ever felt in my entire life. If only I could feel like that forever, everything just seemed balanced and perfect. Since my SO has a stable and decent job I'm able to enjoy my little one during the day. In Oct I got a part time job for extra money at a call center and I just freaking hate the hell out of it. I hate feeling this way and admitting this but when most people call I just want to gouge my eyeballs out and I could just scream. I seriously feel like I'm going to go postal if I keep working there. I want to cry on my way driving there, there are things in that job that make me want to throw chairs at people's heads. I know its not as bad as I'm making it out to be, but what can I say I'm mental. Sorry for the rambling just thought I'd let that out.