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I think I just need to say this to someone as everyone thinks I'm the strong one who deals with everything and keeps it all together when really I just want to start walking away and never stop.
 
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Hiya Sue and welcome to the forum. I really relate to that! Always seen as the strong one when in fact I want to be the weak one for a change and let others deal with things around me.
 
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Hiya Sue and welcome to the forum. I really relate to that! Always seen as the strong one when in fact I want to be the weak one for a change and let others deal with things around me.
Hiya Sue and welcome to the forum. I really relate to that! Always seen as the strong one when in fact I want to be the weak one for a change and let others deal with things around me.
 
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I have a husband waiting for a kidney transplant and my daughter in law who is lovely and is a fantastic mum to my beautiful 2 year old grandaughter which is sending my mind in to overdrive as I admire her for what she is doing I'm scared something is going to go wrong and I will lose them both and when I have tried to say this to them they just say it will be fine. My other son has recently split up with the mother of his child and has moved back in with us and I'm concerned for him as he has a tendency to do stupid things without thinking. We have his little girl another 2 year old every other weekend and she is the light of my life. Unfortunately her mother is at her wits end and suffers from severe mental health issues and is now being assessed by social services to see if she can meet the children's basic needs (she has a 4 year old by another bloke) I don't know how to help her or the children.
I have elderly parents who are becoming more and more needy and unwell. I love them dearly and they are fantastic parents but I feel like I am being pulled from pillar to post and sometimes feel like my head is going to explode. I'm dealing with all this at the moment by becoming an obsessive cleaner, everything has to be shining clean and put away in it's place but unfortunately my husband and son are not of the same mind and I am constantly clearing and cleaning up behind them and if I say anything I get told to chill out. I work full time and it takes me twice as long as it used to to complete tasks as I have to keep rereading and checking everything I do in case I've made a mistake. I'm taking antidepressants and anti anxiety medication as well as HRT but I get really black days when all I want to do is run away. I know this seems really petty to what other people are going through and I should think myself lucky but I just can't shake off these really dark thoughts and feel like my head is going to explode.
 
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