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MIA

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Hi everyone,

Not sure Im strictly eligible to use this site, as not yet got a diagnosis. Im 22 and have a 5 month old daughter. My history is complicated, I have been depressed on and off for as long as I can remember, I think due to the fact I grew up in an abusive situation.

I normally go on antidepressants for a month and then suddenyl feel better about everything and start to think I can just pull myself out of it, and stop taking them. Only the last timethis happened I was on 40mg Citalopram for 1 month, then a family member took me back to the docs to say my moods were erratic and I never listened to anyone in conversation. Basically had been displaying symptoms of bipolar disorder, and looking back its clear I was on an extreme high, but with smaller episodes of thinking of throwing myslef out into the road when walking places etc.

So went to see a psych who couldnt diagnose me at that time (but looking back I wasnt in the right frame of mind to be explaining everything properly). He did say he wanted me to see another psych though, and that he thought I might have Cyclothymia, which I hadnt heard of at the time.

Anyway, instead of going back to psych I decided to move counties 3 times, and only stopped moving around the country as I had moved in with my grandparents and they wouldnt let me! So got a job, was sleeping around 3 hours per night, started going out at least 4 times a week, often nerly every night. Developed a cocaine habit, lost my job, got kicked out of a house Id moved into with students for being "too much". Eventually met my partner now (also a cocaine user at the time) and in my wisdom ! decided to get pregnant. Got pregnant and settled down, stopped all alcohol, drugs etc, felt fine up until a couple of months ago, then started to notice my moods had gone a bit skew-wiff again. Liek trying to suggest to OH that we should break up etc, when that is NOT what I want at all.

So went back to GP, told him I had had a previous referral and needed to be reffered again as I hadnt followed it up at the time. Waiting on a CPN being assigned to me, its taking forever and my moods are quite erratic at the moment. So thought Id join here to see if I can get some support.
 
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Hi and :welcome:

Firstly can I say well done for getting through some very though times! I have found this site very supportive and I'm sure you will too. There are so many people with a huge variety of experiences here and the site is set out so you can post under specific conditions/experiences which I have found excellent.

Stay strong and keep in touch

Best wishes
Lal
xxx
 
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MIA

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Thanks for welcoming me lal, :hug:

Should I be posting in the bipolar section if its relating to this? As they said they weren't sure if it was Bipolar or Cyclothymia?

Cyclothymia is in the Bipolar family anyway I think.
 
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I don't know anything about cyclothymia I'm afraid but if it's in the bipolar family then it would probably the best place or in the other conditions/experiences section.
 
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Hello Mia,I'm new to.I know you have history but could you be suffering from Post natal depression?You maybe more susceptible to this because of your past?Just a suggestion.I'm here because my 17 year old daughter has a terminal illness,bummer hey?See her picture on the justgiving link.I hope because you now have a child they will give you the strength to pull through.I wish you well hun xxx
 
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Yeah maybe, I dont know. Im kind of scared to go on anti deppressants though since they make me go loopy :-S

Still no CPN.
 
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MIA

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Just a quick update on me, I went to see my GP who had prescribed me citalopram, I took only one tablet and 4 hours later my partner had to tell me to calm down. I was erratic, talking lots, not really listening, hyperactive, sexually aggressive, all within the space of 4 hours!

So I have been back to report the reaction and have been prescribed fluoxetine, Im now on my second day of taking them and haven't gone off on one as of yet! I cant describe how pleased I am about that. Thanks for your advice

MIA x
 
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