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- May 5, 2010
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Hi everyone,
Not sure Im strictly eligible to use this site, as not yet got a diagnosis. Im 22 and have a 5 month old daughter. My history is complicated, I have been depressed on and off for as long as I can remember, I think due to the fact I grew up in an abusive situation.
I normally go on antidepressants for a month and then suddenyl feel better about everything and start to think I can just pull myself out of it, and stop taking them. Only the last timethis happened I was on 40mg Citalopram for 1 month, then a family member took me back to the docs to say my moods were erratic and I never listened to anyone in conversation. Basically had been displaying symptoms of bipolar disorder, and looking back its clear I was on an extreme high, but with smaller episodes of thinking of throwing myslef out into the road when walking places etc.
So went to see a psych who couldnt diagnose me at that time (but looking back I wasnt in the right frame of mind to be explaining everything properly). He did say he wanted me to see another psych though, and that he thought I might have Cyclothymia, which I hadnt heard of at the time.
Anyway, instead of going back to psych I decided to move counties 3 times, and only stopped moving around the country as I had moved in with my grandparents and they wouldnt let me! So got a job, was sleeping around 3 hours per night, started going out at least 4 times a week, often nerly every night. Developed a cocaine habit, lost my job, got kicked out of a house Id moved into with students for being "too much". Eventually met my partner now (also a cocaine user at the time) and in my wisdom ! decided to get pregnant. Got pregnant and settled down, stopped all alcohol, drugs etc, felt fine up until a couple of months ago, then started to notice my moods had gone a bit skew-wiff again. Liek trying to suggest to OH that we should break up etc, when that is NOT what I want at all.
So went back to GP, told him I had had a previous referral and needed to be reffered again as I hadnt followed it up at the time. Waiting on a CPN being assigned to me, its taking forever and my moods are quite erratic at the moment. So thought Id join here to see if I can get some support.
Not sure Im strictly eligible to use this site, as not yet got a diagnosis. Im 22 and have a 5 month old daughter. My history is complicated, I have been depressed on and off for as long as I can remember, I think due to the fact I grew up in an abusive situation.
I normally go on antidepressants for a month and then suddenyl feel better about everything and start to think I can just pull myself out of it, and stop taking them. Only the last timethis happened I was on 40mg Citalopram for 1 month, then a family member took me back to the docs to say my moods were erratic and I never listened to anyone in conversation. Basically had been displaying symptoms of bipolar disorder, and looking back its clear I was on an extreme high, but with smaller episodes of thinking of throwing myslef out into the road when walking places etc.
So went to see a psych who couldnt diagnose me at that time (but looking back I wasnt in the right frame of mind to be explaining everything properly). He did say he wanted me to see another psych though, and that he thought I might have Cyclothymia, which I hadnt heard of at the time.
Anyway, instead of going back to psych I decided to move counties 3 times, and only stopped moving around the country as I had moved in with my grandparents and they wouldnt let me! So got a job, was sleeping around 3 hours per night, started going out at least 4 times a week, often nerly every night. Developed a cocaine habit, lost my job, got kicked out of a house Id moved into with students for being "too much". Eventually met my partner now (also a cocaine user at the time) and in my wisdom ! decided to get pregnant. Got pregnant and settled down, stopped all alcohol, drugs etc, felt fine up until a couple of months ago, then started to notice my moods had gone a bit skew-wiff again. Liek trying to suggest to OH that we should break up etc, when that is NOT what I want at all.
So went back to GP, told him I had had a previous referral and needed to be reffered again as I hadnt followed it up at the time. Waiting on a CPN being assigned to me, its taking forever and my moods are quite erratic at the moment. So thought Id join here to see if I can get some support.
