- Mar 2, 2011
As I said this is the first time I have done this. I was pointed in this direction by a friend who has helped me out alot in the past few months. I don't really know how to say this. But I self harm quite badly. I won't go into specifics but it's bad. I feel like I have nothing in my life, that I have nowhere to run to. I am ashamed of myself. I have been taking things on the chin all my life and giving it back but I just can't do it anymore. Everyone who knows me thinks I am a narcissistic cold hearted arse hole if you will excuse the language. Maybe I am slightly narcissistic but I just don't want people near me. I find the majority of people awful. Only my friend knows about the self harming. I am going to my GP tomorrow to see if he can refer me to a psychiatrist or even just a counsellor. It's been so hard to write this out. I have never told anyone about how I feel in my self apart from said friend. So any reply would be good really. Thanks for listening, Josh.