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Hi there.. post breakdown and experiencing depression, anxiety and ptsd.

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Socialising in this way is a little bit unusual for me, and so feels like a bit of an experiment. I talk to my immediate family regarding some of my difficulties, but they, too, are going through a pretty tough time so I’m hesitant to unburden myself. I feel like the mental health problems I’m experiencing are difficult enough, without having the added difficulty of finding people who I can respect and who can relate to me/understand me.
 
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Hi Paul543, welcome to the forum I hope you find peace here as it is very safe and everyone is so caring and helpful. Have a look around the different threads and maybe post and folk will comment and try to help.
 
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Hey @Paul543 it can take a bit of time to feel comfortable when new to the forum thing. I’m in a similar situation to you, sounds almost very much the same actually, so I’m here if you need a chat 👍
 
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Hi Paul543, welcome to the forum I hope you find peace here as it is very safe and everyone is so caring and helpful. Have a look around the different threads and maybe post and folk will comment and try to help.
Thank you Bod. I feel like socialising like this is going to be quite difficult for me since it’s not what I’m used to.. but I’ll certainly give it a try 🙂.
 
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Hey @Paul543 it can take a bit of time to feel comfortable when new to the forum thing. I’m in a similar situation to you, sounds almost very much the same actually, so I’m here if you need a chat 👍
Thank you hairybanana, for your kind offer, and the same goes for you also 👍
 
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Thank you hairybanana, for your kind offer, and the same goes for you also 👍
Thanks man, I’m doing betterish now. Kind of haha So what’s going on? Sounds like you’re dealing with a lot right now
 
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Thanks man, I’m doing betterish now. Kind of haha So what’s going on? Sounds like you’re dealing with a lot right now
Apologies for the late reply. It was late where I am and so I fell asleep shortly after jumping on here, and yesterday was incredibly hectic. In all honesty, I don’t know where to begin. At present, I would say that I’m struggling to find motivation, or enjoyment in anything. Everything feels empty and ultimately pointless. I’m struggling with social anxiety which makes it particularly difficult for me to engage with (and feel safe around) unfamiliar people. Probably justifiable given some of the treatment I’ve had over the years. Things might be slightly better if I had some kind of support network in place outside of my immediate family, but I don’t really. I have been under a CBT therapist for a few months, but since they seem to believe that if you’re feeling bad, it’s because you’re thinking about negative things, I’m struggling to take it seriously. I also feel like my emotions have largely flatlined (which I’m told is part of the ptsd).. At the moment, I’m trying to push myself back out into the world (baby steps really). Slowly build up my confidence around people and trying to make healthier lifestyle choices, diet etc..
 
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Apologies for the late reply. It was late where I am and so I fell asleep shortly after jumping on here, and yesterday was incredibly hectic. In all honesty, I don’t know where to begin. At present, I would say that I’m struggling to find motivation, or enjoyment in anything. Everything feels empty and ultimately pointless. I’m struggling with social anxiety which makes it particularly difficult for me to engage with (and feel safe around) unfamiliar people. Probably justifiable given some of the treatment I’ve had over the years. Things might be slightly better if I had some kind of support network in place outside of my immediate family, but I don’t really. I have been under a CBT therapist for a few months, but since they seem to believe that if you’re feeling bad, it’s because you’re thinking about negative things, I’m struggling to take it seriously. I also feel like my emotions have largely flatlined (which I’m told is part of the ptsd).. At the moment, I’m trying to push myself back out into the world (baby steps really). Slowly build up my confidence around people and trying to make healthier lifestyle choices, diet etc..
I suppose that’s the basic outline, without going into too much detail. Sorry if it seems a bit condensed, I’m really not very good at this 😂.
 
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Apologies for the late reply. It was late where I am and so I fell asleep shortly after jumping on here, and yesterday was incredibly hectic. In all honesty, I don’t know where to begin. At present, I would say that I’m struggling to find motivation, or enjoyment in anything. Everything feels empty and ultimately pointless. I’m struggling with social anxiety which makes it particularly difficult for me to engage with (and feel safe around) unfamiliar people. Probably justifiable given some of the treatment I’ve had over the years. Things might be slightly better if I had some kind of support network in place outside of my immediate family, but I don’t really. I have been under a CBT therapist for a few months, but since they seem to believe that if you’re feeling bad, it’s because you’re thinking about negative things, I’m struggling to take it seriously. I also feel like my emotions have largely flatlined (which I’m told is part of the ptsd).. At the moment, I’m trying to push myself back out into the world (baby steps really). Slowly build up my confidence around people and trying to make healthier lifestyle choices, diet etc..
No need to apologise. Yeeaaaah dunno about the cbt thing for managing ptsd. Perhaps time for a new psychologist? I remember starting out with one who did the same, basically just wanted me to stop having negative thoughts. Like, oh yeah, that’s fixed everything, thanks! Went through half a dozen psychologists til i found the one I’ve been seeing for 4 years now. He deals with trauma and ptsd etc so a better fit for me. Has made a world of difference for me, honestly, has been life changing. Big fat pile of meds has helped me with anxiety immensely, do you take any medication to help manage it? Think also the emotions flatlining is understandable given the lack of support you’re getting from therapy and feeling like you can’t go to family for support.
Sorry you’re going through a tough time, i hope things turn around for you soon
 
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Yeah, I think I’m of the same opinion regarding the CBT. I’m just not feeling understood, or like my therapist really understands how depression works, but then I suppose there’s no substitute for experience. At the moment I’m taking about 200mg of Sertraline daily, as well as Propranalol (Beta blockers) as and when I feel like I need them. My GP has just prescribed 5mg Buspirone to see how I get on with those also. You’re right, the medication does help, it’s been a handy crutch that’s allowed me to function with some degree of normality. Without it I’d be too stressed and too uncomfortable to go out and do the things that I need to do to get by. Obviously I don’t want to be on them forever, but they’re definitely helping for now. The biggest hurdle at the moment is building my confidence around other people I think. I have quite a long and consistent history of being bullied and victimised, so I feel meek and my confidence is completely shot. Fingers crossed I’ll have a bit of luck finding a decent mental health practitioner anyways 👍.

Thanks for your time, I really appreciate it.
 
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Yeah, I think I’m of the same opinion regarding the CBT. I’m just not feeling understood, or like my therapist really understands how depression works, but then I suppose there’s no substitute for experience. At the moment I’m taking about 200mg of Sertraline daily, as well as Propranalol (Beta blockers) as and when I feel like I need them. My GP has just prescribed 5mg Buspirone to see how I get on with those also. You’re right, the medication does help, it’s been a handy crutch that’s allowed me to function with some degree of normality. Without it I’d be too stressed and too uncomfortable to go out and do the things that I need to do to get by. Obviously I don’t want to be on them forever, but they’re definitely helping for now. The biggest hurdle at the moment is building my confidence around other people I think. I have quite a long and consistent history of being bullied and victimised, so I feel meek and my confidence is completely shot. Fingers crossed I’ll have a bit of luck finding a decent mental health practitioner anyways 👍.

Thanks for your time, I really appreciate it.
It’ll take time hey. The more you interact and the more positive interactions you have with people, the easier it will become. But give yourself that time to get there. Medication helps, but I credit the majority of my progress to my therapist. He’s given me a healthy understanding of people, which I didn’t really have (like you, stemming from being mistreated).
 
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