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[mad as a hatter]

hi folks been so long since i was on but i,ve been in hospital for last 3 months been through a nitemare got sectioned twice kept doin a runner all the time taking tablets so i got put in a more secure ward where i couldn,t get out it was hell but what i needed i had a battle with the doctors 2 get out a month go but they wouldn,t have it forced me 2 stay but things have picked up last couple wks and there,s a discharge meetin 2 morrow and i,m goin get more support when i leave this time instead off leavin without ne help and goin down hill quickly again i never thought i,d c this day i,d ever get out cause i was so low but i,ve nagged my doctor for last 2 wks 2 let me out so he,s finally agreed and hopefully 2 morrow it,s goin happen and we,ll c how good i am and if i can cope or not but i gotta try ne way not much more 2 say for now

 

[keepsafe]

Sorry to hear that you have been having it so rough Mad as a Hatter.
I hope you get continued care when you come out so you can carry on a road to recovery


KS

 

[quality factor]

Hi, good to hear from you,sorry to hear you have had a rough time.
Hope all goes well with your meeting, let us know how you get on.
QF.

 

[rollinat]

Hi, good to hear from you though not good that you're having such a tough time - I hope your meeting goes well and that you get the support you need. Take care of yourself.


Rollinat

 

[jax]

Glad you're soon getting out. Hope you get the support you need when out.
Jacqui

 

[Dollit]

How's it going? You back home yet?

 

[honeyquince]

Welcome back (I hope)... what sort of support have you got? The standard follow up that I've had has been a CPN visit within 7 days and then just regular CPN visits. I hope you get what you need.

 

[Lozzi_1004]

Hiya MaaH, good to see you around again . Areyou home yet?

 

[mad as a hatter]

hi got home on friday there a bit strange tryin get bk 2 normal life after 3 months in hospital and tryin keep my mood at a decent level after spendin a few wks tryin convince the doctors i was fit 2 leave not convinced some nurses thought i was cause a few days before a left a few them asked me if i was ok did i feel safe 2 go and not harm myself i,m not sure myself but i had 2 get out again and try the meetin was fine they decided i get a cpn 1 was at the meetin but she said i should hear in a wk about what 1 i,m gettin and i,ll see my consultants understudy i liked her a lot felt i could talk 2 her about things so i,ll c if that ever happens i,ll olso go 2 day centre if i want 2 but i,m not sure about that also c my own pdoc i,m not sure about her i feel she let me down badly this time she know,s me well enough 2 sense i was in real trouble things might not happened it took a junior pdoc 2 c this typical and 2 sections later but hopefully i,m gettin over my nightmare i,ll be around the forum a bit as i try get through 1st wk out hospital and wait for my support network 2 kick in so much for not gettin out till it was in place but in a sense i,m glad i am out e way i,ll keep u all updated on how things r goin for me by the way thanks for all ur support i had before i went into hospital it helped me a lot

 

[jamesdean]

Thinking about you my friend JD hope that it all works out ok for you

 

[mad as a hatter]

been out hospital a wk not been easy tho my mood keeps swnging around like a yoyo i,m keepin a hold off the small highs i,ve got they keep me goin and fighting the thoughts off killing my self i have everyday the pdoc i saw in hospital says i might always have these thoughts but it,s how i deal with them that matters i find this astoishing counsidering it,s not him that,s havin 2 deal with them all the time i,m still waitin for my support network 2 kick in that was mean,t 2 be set up before i left typical i,m still waitin this is me supposed 2 be better 2 i wonder some days i still feel like diappearin some days cause i can,t stand things ne more thing is i,ve put my family through so much lately not sure i could do it 2 them again thing is some days i feel they would be better off without me so whats the last 3 months in hospital been all about then been a waste time cause a bit me still feels the same way but i,m not goin bk in couldn,t stand that i don,t know what my future holds ne more or maybe it,s i just don,t care ne more