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Enso
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- Jun 19, 2008
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Hi,
I have never been to a doctor or had any sort of diagnosis but I think I am unwell. I am hoping you could give some advice.
A few years ago I was round a friends flat when my thoughts, and I mean by this the normal internal dialogue we have in our mind. Went peculiar.
When we are thinking I guess we have a lot of internal dialog going on.
This particular day my mind began to feel strange and the thought 'I love you' got stuck in my mind.
I have no attraction to my friend what so ever. But this internal dialog was repeating over and over in my mind getting stronger and stronger. I felt like I was being compelled to say it out loud. All my other thoughts were being drowned in it.
I had to really fight not to say it and get it out of my head.
Something similar happened today whilst at work. My colleague was talking to me and it came back. Not as intense but it was there. And I quickly fought to suppress it.
It really disturbed me as I don't feel well at all during it.
Some other things have happened with my mind over the years too. But these are the worst episodes by far and I wonder if it will worsen.
I am wondering if it happened today because my dog died yesterday and I have been really upset.
I am developing a mental illness like schizophrenia, personality disorder or am I hearing voices?
I know you will all say go see your GP but I am not prepared to do that because if I tell him everything that has happened I might get sectioned. I am not willing to go down that route or take meds that will either turn me into a zombie or rot my insides.
I just want a few opinions based on your experiences and knowledge.
I have never been to a doctor or had any sort of diagnosis but I think I am unwell. I am hoping you could give some advice.
A few years ago I was round a friends flat when my thoughts, and I mean by this the normal internal dialogue we have in our mind. Went peculiar.
When we are thinking I guess we have a lot of internal dialog going on.
This particular day my mind began to feel strange and the thought 'I love you' got stuck in my mind.
I have no attraction to my friend what so ever. But this internal dialog was repeating over and over in my mind getting stronger and stronger. I felt like I was being compelled to say it out loud. All my other thoughts were being drowned in it.
I had to really fight not to say it and get it out of my head.
Something similar happened today whilst at work. My colleague was talking to me and it came back. Not as intense but it was there. And I quickly fought to suppress it.
It really disturbed me as I don't feel well at all during it.
Some other things have happened with my mind over the years too. But these are the worst episodes by far and I wonder if it will worsen.
I am wondering if it happened today because my dog died yesterday and I have been really upset.
I am developing a mental illness like schizophrenia, personality disorder or am I hearing voices?
I know you will all say go see your GP but I am not prepared to do that because if I tell him everything that has happened I might get sectioned. I am not willing to go down that route or take meds that will either turn me into a zombie or rot my insides.
I just want a few opinions based on your experiences and knowledge.