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Kay88

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I am Kay I am 30 years of age. I have 4 children all 10 and under. My 5 year is autistic and ADHD, he's very hard work and his behaviour lately is really out of control. I suffer from depression and anxiety, I have frequent panic attacks and am constantly at A&E as I always fear am going to have a heart attack and die. Especially when I get pains in my chest and down my arms. I have suffered for 11 years since my dad died but it was never this bad then. Am exhausted with life and ready to give up loosing the will to live. I can't cope with my son's behavior anymore, no one helps me or is even bothered in fact. I have contacted different agencies including social services and there's no funding for any form of respite at all. I am so bloody physically and emotionally exhausted, an sick of crying and feeling sorry for myself. I slipped my L5 disc in my back a few months back and the pain is horrendous in my back and legs of a night. I just want to end all this suffer ing so sick of being a nervous wreck all's my partner cares about is himself while am caring for our children while trying to keep myself together it's so hard I just want to be me again 😪
 
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Hi Kay

I am replying to your post as I have recovered from agoraphobia 30 years ago and I know how it feels to want to end the suffering.

I have had some anxiety return recently, but I am fighting it and doing well.

I also have IBS and acid reflux at the moment. So I know what it feels like to have multiple pain.

All you can do is take one day at a time. It must be really difficult for you and I feel almost ashamed to offer you such basic advice, but when all else fails for me I just go back to basics.

Please keep posting on here and people will help you, I promise you that.

Don't give up fighting, I know it is hard but don't give up.

I wish I could help you more xxxxxx
 
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Fancyharm

Hi Kay

I am replying to your post as I have recovered from agoraphobia 30 years ago and I know how it feels to want to end the suffering.

I have had some anxiety return recently, but I am fighting it and doing well.

I also have IBS and acid reflux at the moment. So I know what it feels like to have multiple pain.

All you can do is take one day at a time. It must be really difficult for you and I feel almost ashamed to offer you such basic advice, but when all else fails for me I just go back to basics.

Please keep posting on here and people will help you, I promise you that.

Don't give up fighting, I know it is hard but don't give up.

I wish I could help you more xxxxxx
Thank you so much for your reply.
It's really positive you are recovering and fighting this. You must be so relieved 😌

My head hurts, everyday is a constant battle. My eyes are heavy due to so much crying, I sat on the phone to My mum last night crying hysterically. I told her I can't do this life anymore nor do I want it. It hurts my heart. She didn't say much just sat and listened which I was expecting anyway. My partner just doesn't take an interest and I feel to end the relationship as he's so negative about almost everything and I do not need anymore negativity in my life, I need only positivity around me. He pulls me down anyway calls me names , makes me feel worthless calls me fat along with other names. I just can't see why I was out on this earth I feel I have no purpose in life.

Thank you for taking the time to reply xxxx
 
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Please please hang in there.

My eyes were red raw from crying, even wiping them hurt.

I have been there. You are not alone.

Look up 're wiring the mind. Please, just sit and read it. Read positive affirmations even write them over and over. It won't feel.like anything is happening at first but it will be going in and replacing some negative stuff.

Let us know how you get on. XxxX
 
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