- Nov 11, 2019
I have been struggling with a doubt of intention for a couple weeks. I was in a foam pit with my family on a vacation stop. I covered myself in foam and could breath fine. It was kind of fun. Later my 11 year old son and I were throwing foam balls at each other and I end up covering him completely. Hi then didn’t move. After a couple seconds thoughts came into my head that I wanted to suffocate him. 3 seconds went by and I pulled him out. He was fine. I asked if he could breathe and he said yes. I then felt terrible that I might have had the intention to kill him. Then I questioned whether this was ocd. I have gone back and forth on this for the last couple of weeks. I haven’t had a serious ocd fount for some time so any input would be much appreciated!