hi just been diagnosed and unsure

[dizzylizzy59]

hi new, just been diagnosed not on medication yet, start tomorrow witrh riirandol or somything of that nature, for bi polar, have to see a shrink again too. i dont think i am mad, but they think i am. i do not fully understand this yet, all i know is that for years i have had episodes of violent behaviour coupled with tearfull and depressed down weeks months, anxious and irratble, lost loads of jobs because of paranoia. but years ago i was told it was stress, pmt, and then the menopause cos i went throgu it early, now i have been given the diagnosis, that makes me feela little better but more confused, will i get better, what will i feel like onthe antisphycotic stuff, ahh what now , sorry cant sleep and got verbal diareahh at the moment

 

[iheartpandas20]

hello im new too!

Hey, im no expert but that does sound pretty bipolar. Try not to think of it as crazy/uncrazy! You seem to have had difficulties because of your emotions and paranoia, and medication/therapy will help that. The goal of treatment is to make your life happier and easier, not to 'fix' you! so keep smiling and use the support and help to make things better.



pandas

 

[nickh]

Hi and to the Forum dizzylizzy. Getting yourself diagnosed is a big first step. Any medication will take a while to work so give it some time. Hope that it does work for you - but there are never any guarantees with medication, either in terms of effects or effectiveness - if you look around here you will see that different people have very different experiences with the same medications. It would be worth going on the bi-polar part of the Forum and asking people for their experiences of this drug.
Best of luck with it.

Nick.

 

[Dollit]

Bipolar diagnosis means different things for different people. It's an illness where our extremes are exaggerations of what is our "normality". Medication affects people in different ways and brands and generic variations of them can vary those affects too.

For me the key thing was learning about who I was and then that helps me deal with the bipolar person. That and a very strong support network.

 

[Fedup]

Hello and to MHF .

 

[Twylight]

Hello and Welcome

 

[dizzylizzy59]

thankyou

I dont really know whoI really am, I dont remember beinghappy in years, but just pretending to be happy to make others happy, if youknow what i mean, however today i have had enough, today was a great day, but not without what always happens in my family strife, thats what, and i always end in the middle, i cant do it no more, i really cant, i brought all my kids up by myself, and i worked most of my adult life, except for the fact that i left my jobs because of paranoia, my depression over the years has been getting steadily worse, and now at nearly aged 50 they found out my problem well sorry its a bit to damn late, my life is nearly over anyway, i dont go out cos i cant be in crowded places, i get anxious and paranoid, i cant funtion properly, iforget stuff, i used to be so independent, now may daughter is treating me like a little kid, i want to be who i am supposed to be a mature stable mother and grandmother, not this stupid, sensless, selfish person with no sense of humour anymore, and no life, i come to the end of the road, i know what you will say, it will get better, wait tillthe meds start working,well ihave nothad themyet, they cant even get the blood test right, the stupid nurse tried three times and boy did it hurt, soi got to wait another few days now, ihad diazipan last night but it not worked, i now gone from really angry and manic, to pretty pissed of, well more then that, i gone back down again, but this time much harder and quicker than last time. anyway i am rambling again,sorry so sorry i sound like a complete idiot who feels sorry for herself, well your probably right, thanks any way for the previous advice

 

[Twylight]

Hi Dizzy,
I'm sorry your experiencing mood swings
Perhaps the medication will help this