Hi!
Hi KeepSafe thanks for replying, I've not been feeling good today. My mum is exhausted with my problems (she's my carer) and needs a holiday or day trips to get back on her feet again. I was so stressed about my problems and the neighbours I broke the plastic window in one of our doors (which it needed replacing anyway) but I swore at mum too and I don't normally swear at her. She and my brother think I'm just paranoid that the neighbours are having a go at me, when I go on stelazine and procyclodine they stop me sleeping and they don't stop what goes on outside my house. I went on olanzapine, it stopped me sleeping too, I had pains all over and put on loads of weight, about 3 stones in about 3 months and the voices and noises didn't stop. I'm now on hydroxezine and amitrip, because after taking those pills I hadn't been able to sleep and have been more sensitive to caffeine - which also can stop me sleeping with just half a glass of diet coke. So I decided to try to get used to it by drinking a bit more lately and it didn't seem to affect me this time, thank God. Tho I have been staying up into the early hours to watch what goes on in the garden at that time, I'm really sure I heard the neighbours in the garden and one time (with the curtains slightly open a crack), I was sure I saw someone moving around in a white shirt. Mum and my brother doesn't believe me, no one does. I heard the man next door before this with his windows open saying that 'one of them is going to die' and I thought he meant my 2 bunnies outside, so I've kept 1 in and put more mesh over the other hutch to stop them opening the door and the other 1 to the bedroom compartment, the bolt's broken so they'd need a tool to open it. I'm worried they're going to kill them or leave the door open. So I've been taking my tablets again and sleeping out the back of the house with the curtains wide open, this relaxes me cause I'll be able to see and hear them. I feel like I'm going mad. The neighbour isn't happy about getting the fence fixed. It nearly colapsed the first time he was picking on me, the second time it colapsed and my mum had a word he moaned the whole time and his son gave me a load of mouth outside the front of the house. At that time I wasn't staying in my room I kept going all round the house to get away cause all I'd get is abuse screamed at me all down the side of the house and the front. This time the fence has completely colapsed up the top and he's not happy about getting it fixed, he leaves his gate open in his garden and we have 2 dogs which he doesn't care. So many things keep happening I can't help but get so paranoid and stressed. I've tried with CCTV, 1 I can't find the right equipment, can't affor it anyway and 2 no one will put anything I have inc. lights up outside. This is why I got a puppy because the old dog is deaf now and I wanted my own dog as I wasn't having rabbits anymore. Xmas '08, they really got to me and I became hysterical, while they enjoyed it and my brother finds this embarassing. I've tried Neighbours From Hell In Britain but I came across a technical fault with the username and password. My mum's talking about getting me back on anti-psychotics and I don't want them. I'm alright on these sleeping pills and the others only mask my problems for a time anyway. I don't know what else to do.
LionAngel29
