- Nov 2, 2008
I was diagnosed with depression about 5 years ago and have been on various medications since. I have also tried different talking therapies but I still can't seem to get control of it. I can seem fine for a couple of days and then I'll have a really bad day/week when I am trying to remember why I should be alive. I have never tried to end it ( I occasionally self harm but nothing that bad) but at times I find some comfort in thinking of how I would do it. I have been feeling bad for about 2 weeks now but have had some good days inbetween and before this episode I was ok for a month or so. This is typical of how I feel for the past few years and I'm starting to feel worn down by it. One of the reasons I believe I'm depressed is because I was abused as a child and another is my father commited suicide when I was 14. I do work but have had a lot of time off and this has caused friction with my collegues which in turn makes works difficult as everyone is fed up with me and have actually told me I should just leave. I feel very lonely, I have no friends to talk to and end up either sat at home or at work when no one wants me there. I am stuck in a rut and don't know what to do.