- Jun 26, 2008
- el paso, texas
I just wanted to let all who will hear that I am new here and just wanted to join a forum I could relate to. I am diagnosed as having a social anxiety disorder, I think this disorder also has depression and pscyzophrenia in it because I have been told I have that also. Well, I have had these disorders for some years now, I used to mask them a lot through a lot of alcohol consumption, well after a stint in rehab and lots of experiences in life I finally quit drinking. Only now my issues began to arise after the drinking was over with, you see all that time I was drinking I found out I was only masking these disorders I have and this was not good because as soon as I got off the alchohol a lot of symptoms started showing themselves and then I got professional help and ended up on medications. I used to avoid people a lot and if I did get told to do something while I was working I would usually handle this through lashing out at authority figures. I almost lost my job over constantly fighting with management. Eventually my job was kind enough to give me a disability retirement. I already was getting VA disability from when I was in the military and had an injury in which I broke my wrist and after that injury I had more issues, like my mental ones. Well, now that I am retired after a lot of years of working during my life I am enjoying the more simpler life now. I still avoid many social outings and people and would prefer to be at my home anyday over going out, but at least I am now more relaxed. I have wife and daughter who think I'm crazy and really don't understand the disorder I have, everything I do is wrong in thier eyes yet they fail to want to recognize that i really have a serious disorder and this is why I act a lot of times why I do. Oh well, just thought I would introduce myself and say "hi" to everyone and hope that you all have some encouragement for me and my problems i may go through in life still. I am now somewhat of a loner in that I really don't have friends I hang out with or anything like that. bye.