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psymephrior

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Hello, my name is Roy. I'm 35, been in therapy for about two years now for love/sex addiction, referred to this specialist by a marriage counselor.
Initially I thought sex addiction therapy would consist mostly of dog-trainer style "Down, boy! Down!", and possibly ice packs, but it's been greatly revealing. It's really a self-esteem issue stemming from long-term violence and bullying by peers throughout childhood...seems easy to intellectualize but (so far) hard to actually feel differently about things. I still feel loved or unloved based on the same stuff, and I feel like I exist only as the reflection I see of myself in others.
I read a lot, mostly psychology or neurobiology. Every here and there I'll see something and it seems to fit me perfectly. For example, in the Dissociative Identity Disorder sourcebook there's a couple pages about passive-aggressive behavior. Every description I'd read before seemed like someone else, this example scenario was like a page straight out of my own playbook. Perceive rejection, unfair treatment or exclusion somehow, never speak up about it, act resentful, deny any hurt feelings, and harbor unspoken resentment or anger forever.
 
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Dollit

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Welcome to the forum.

I'm glad that you're finding help from your therapy and that it's enlightening but self-diagnosis from a page in a book isn't a good idea. DID is not a straightforward thing to diagnose (about as straightforward as all the other mental health problems and disorders). I'm sure that if you raised this with your counsellor they would tell you the same. If you think you need a diagnosis then a specialist is the best place to go.
 
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Apotheosis

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I read a lot, mostly psychology or neurobiology.
I read up a lot on things too, & try to get as much knowledge as I can. It isn't a bad thing. Psychology has also helped me gain certain perspectives on things in early childhood; that before I didn't consider. Especially concerning issues of abandonment, certain traumas, patterns of behaviour, & macro cosmic projections of micro cosmic issues.

Welcome to the forum.
 
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psymephrior

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Dollit,
I didn't self-diagnose DID. I was only recognizing similarities between my behavior and the book's description of passive aggressive behavior, but you're right that my thoughts and feelings on the matter were clearly wrong. I just read a lot of psychology. I appreciate your tamping down on my wrong thinking though, and I'll try to be as inconspicuous as possible here. My introduction was only meant to express my feelings, not to set off any of the experts or moderators here. It seemed only polite to introduce myself when I joined.

Apotheosis,
Thanks for understanding:) You make this feel like the friendliest place on the web
 
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Dollit

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All I was saying was that it's not a good idea to try to make links between your behaviour, thoughts etc and "conditions". Self-diagnosis is perhaps a rather broad term to use but I would say the same thing whether I was a moderator or not. I've seen too many people tie themselves in knots trying to help themselves.

As for being inconspicuous here - I'd much rather you joined the discussions etc in your own way. The forum thrives on debates & discussions and it's a fantastic way for us all to broaden our thinking.
 

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