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Aaaa1104
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Hi guys, I’m new here. Be kind. I’ve suffered massively with mental health for a number of years now after my kids dad mentally and physically abused me to the point he bit off my nose. I’ve underwent many plastic surgeries over the last 5 years. But at first I was a big wreckless with a “f*ck it” attitude and as time has went on demons have creeped up on me. I am now in a very lonely, dark place even tho I have people around me, my kids & my new partner who hasn’t long moved in after being kept at arms length for a very very long time as you can imagine. But I’m an under psychiatric care, I have a cpn, a link worker, regular gp, doing online cbt and waiting for psychology. It’s been 5 years since I was attacked but my life seems to be getting worse. I feel like I’ve just been giving pill after pill. I feel numb. Like I’m afraid of everything. I can’t concentrate fully on things, like I’m in the twilight zone. I’m on mirtazipine, venlafaxine, quetiapine, nitazipam, propanol, and diazepam. I am also on Oxypro, gabbapentin and shortek for chronic pain.
Am I making myself worse. I am honestly afraid of everything. My life literally revolves around making sure my children and well looked after, and once they are asleep and settled for the night, my demons appear and I’m trapped in a night of nightmares every night. I don’t even know why I’ve wrote all this I don’t even who to speak to openly about things
Am I making myself worse. I am honestly afraid of everything. My life literally revolves around making sure my children and well looked after, and once they are asleep and settled for the night, my demons appear and I’m trapped in a night of nightmares every night. I don’t even know why I’ve wrote all this I don’t even who to speak to openly about things