today is no better im really struggling
i need to stop thinking.. music helps to a certain point. not had a decent nights sleep for ages
i have sh for that long i think its normal. and sometimes i dont even no im doing it (if you know what i mean)
people keep asking me are you alright because im always on a downer and i try n fight the tears and emotion to say im ok but its very hard
at the moment i think death is easier than this..least the pain will be gone
I thought I'd come back to this thread, because I'm concerned about suggesting loud music. I do this, but I wouldn't advise doing this too much sam.
I think I may have over done it again, and I've been having buzzing in my left ear for the last two days. It's tinnitus I think, and I've had this before [though last time it was incredibly high pitched] and forgotten how bad it can be. It really affects your balance as well as bloody annoying, and there's no getting away from it!
I'm butting in here, but are you being seen by a psychiatrist? I wonder if you can ask your doc to refer you to the Crisis Team so you can call them when it gets so bad. You seem very depressed and needing more than just antiDs. You have a lovely child of 2? That sounds lovely and I bet you are so proud of him. You can get better you know, there is hope. But depression just gets people to think in circular reasoning. You can get better honey. xx