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[Shybear]

Hi, I'm not quite sure why im doing this just thought it was a good idea. I've never really done one of these before so here goes...
I used to SH about a year and a half ago and then my family noticed and i stopped cause i couldnt hide it anymore. Lately i've been getting very frustrated and the urges to do it again start comming back. I thought that part of my life was a mistake and it was over, but now with moving hou(which is very stressful, trust me) and under huge pressures to do well at sixth form, i'm finding it very difficult to cope with life at home. I recently broke up with a guy who then started to fiollow me, check up on me and even started to text my mum!! and that just made it all so un bearably hard to not do any cutting again. I think im over the worse of it now as i've got a new guy and we are settling in quite well in our new place and got some good results for recent exams. But my mum is getting increasingly hard to live with, i have to keep my new guy a secret and there is so much to do in this new house like woredrobes to build and shelfs to fit, with a dad who is bullied by his boss into doing extra work with no extra pay and a sister who is scared of socialising and never goes out. its no wonder im feeling a little pressured right now.
pfew!! that was long!! sorry it just felt good to let it out.
i know my problems are nothing like as bad as other people's but i dont tink they are insignificant either and it might just help tp beable to log on and tell people when i feel stressed even if they don'e care!!

 

[Dollit]

If they're your problems then they're big enough.

You do seem to be struggling to cope at the moment. What is it with the new guy that you have to keep him a secret? There seems to be a lot of tension at home.

Join in here when you want to, find your own space here and we'll do our best to support you.

 

[Shybear]

thanks

thank you
my new guy feels guilty because my ex is still in love with me and tells him so
thankyou and i will keep posting its just nice to know someon cares!!!!

 

[Dollit]

It's your ex's problem then, not yours or the new guy. Tell him to butt out - politely of course, just because he hasn't moved on doesn't mean to say that you should stay in the same place!

 

[nickh]

Hi and to the Forum.

Nick.

 

[keepsafe]

Hello and

I am glad it felt good to let some of that out, talk away.
KS

 

[Lozzi_1004]

Hi and

Glad you found the place it's a great place to vent!
I agree with Dollit, though tell your ex to (nicely) butt out. He's not your problem any more and not part of your life!

 

[Shybear]

i've tried but short of kicking him off the planet with no mobile or communications the bastard wont leave!!!
anyway he ound out through reading my friends messages on her phone!!! i can't believe antone would do that!!!
my problems just got worse with my mum and her sister fighting over who has to look after my 80yr old gradmother!!! my mum has a history of depression and is back in the rut with a job she hates a mother with a broken heart and a husband who wont just support her!! my dad just thinks they have to sort it out themselves and as long as she never lives with us full term he'll be happy!!
The worst thing is I was happy till an hour ago and now i i want to do is bleed, and all the pressure thats inside me run away with it!!!! but i know it'll only make things worse!! im hoping this will help but truth be told i dont have a fucking clue!!!

 

[honeyquince]

Hi Shybear,

Sorry that things are so stressed at the mo but I hope that the support that you get here will help you through it. As Lozzi says, it's a great place to vent particularly when it sometimes feels that there is no one else to talk to (sh is a particular example when it is easy to end up feeling isolated!). Take care, Honey