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Robert_215
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- Sep 15, 2009
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Hey im new to this, I was depressed about 3 years ago to the point I never thought I would get better or be able to sort it out and i got better and thought woo hoo i will never get ill again because i know how to cope with it and what brings it on. Then out of the blue i have got depressed again isloated alone everyone seems to be doing there own thing and i just cant get involved or be a part of it anymore. I am anxious feel weird i dont feel like me and my mind is certainly not working like a rational person anymore. im so down and dont know what to do i cant hardly concentrate i cant seem to determine normal emotion from sad to happy i have totally lost plot again and if anyone asks i just cry too its crazy. Its horrible how it can just take over you i wish i could just switch any thoughts off i have had over the last few days because i cant seem to make myself think how can i be a part of that normality after what i have seen or how my mind as made me see things lately. whats happening to me ? i lost all sense of time and days etc. dunno what to do really its as though im just a shell not a person and things seem not to be real etc. i have started thinking crazy now to the point maybe i have found the real meaning to life etc and its just one big act or fake and i cant trick my mind or fake it to become apart of it anymore im just sat there thinking same thing over and over and no mental stimulation no happyness. cant sleep cant get tired just same emptyness regardless of anything if i was to win the lottery or have an arm chopped off i would just feel the same. I dont know what else to say because when i explain it no one understands.
im as normal as anyone when ive not been depressed fun a laugh cool i like myself and personality but when im depressed like this its insane
im as normal as anyone when ive not been depressed fun a laugh cool i like myself and personality but when im depressed like this its insane
