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Hey guys new here and have a few questions.

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Sebby88

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I have always been very outgoing and usually the loudest person in the room. Confident work in sales have no problem being social.

I have never wanted to admit my condition, and I tried to open up to people, It resulted in "what? you? nah no way your fine".

I have crippling anxiety and depression. It's so difficult to explain.

My days are 99% thoughts of impending doom 1% positive. Sometimes it gets so overwhelming that my vision gets blurry and the room starts to spin my mouth goes completely dry and I turn pale and have to sit down. These panic attacks are pretty frequent and are usually not triggered by anything.

If I get good news I will be happy for about ten seconds but then my mind will instantly start focusing on the negative and dissecting the situation prioritising the negative untill the positive completely dissappears.

I can never eat properly without being anxious and my stomache knotting up. I usually end up gagging and struggling to finish meals especially when there is someone around me.

I have to make sure to put in earphones and distract myself to eat.

I dont know anyone who is in the same boat as me. Im just tired, its really exhausting. Whenever I get a panic attack its so draining. Its like someone just hit you in the head with a brick. My energy levels are severly impacted by constant stress and worry over absolutely nothing.

A few days ago I was in a restaurant with my girlfriend, I was feeling fine. All of a sudden I got this overwhelming feeling that everyone was starring at me it was like the room was becoming smaller and smaller and everything was gradually getting pulled towards me. My vision went blurry the sound of my girlfriend speaking suddenly got washed out all I could hear was the music in the background that wasnt even loud. I started to sweat my heart was pounding I felt like If I did get out of there asap I would pass out.

My mind always goes into panic mode and presumes the worst case scenario in any situation and stupid things like job interviews will literally leave me with zero sleep for weeks upon end.

I've been experiencing this for as long as I can remember. And I think its time to try to get some help.

I was hoping to talk to anyone experiencing anything similar?
 
Lone_wanderer

Lone_wanderer

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Hi @Sebby88, just wanted to say welcome to the forum, I have Schizophrenia and suffer a lot of paranoia and anxiety though they are mostly controlled by medication, rather like you I don't show it, I had a girlfriend once who reckoned her anxiety was worse than my paranoia because I never show any sign of it on the surface, my reply to her was I have paranoid and anxious thoughts all the time - I just don't show it.

Anyway welcome aboard and I hope you find this a useful place to get some advice and support for your problem. :).

While no one here can diagnose it sounds to me like you might be suffering from panic disorder and you may benefit from speaking to your GP about it.
 
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Sebby88

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I really appreciate the reply! I was not expecting one to be honest. Im worried the GP wont take me seriously. I've always had a fear of mood altering medications. How was your initial GP visit? was it easy to explain?

Again I really appreciate you taking the time to reply. I found a few group meetings focused on anxiety and depression I have absolutely no problem with public speaking I think I'll go there this weekend.
 
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Lone_wanderer

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Alas Sebby, my first experience with the mental health system was hospitalisation due to full blown episode, however I had problems for years before hand and self medicated with cannabis which eventually just exacerbated the issues, GPs have heard it all these days just express yourself the way you did in your post here and you will be fine.

Support groups sound good and you should find some support there and advice from others who are experiencing similar problems.
 
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