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Hey everyone - feeling low

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Tankless

New member
Joined
Dec 2, 2019
Messages
2
Location
North Carolina
Hey y'all
First of all, nice to meet you! I hope I can help at least one person feel better!

I hate to reach out like this but I don't know what to do. My depression has been getting precipitously worse. I barely got myself to work today. Which, of course, made me feel like an even worse person. I know I need therapy badly, but I don't feel worth it? I'm really just wishing that I didn't exist.

[Trigger warning maybe]
I figure there are actual bad people in the world, right? Every time I go to therapy I mention that I'm a Bad Person. I don't have hard evidence, I just feel it in my bones. I know that I'm a bad person. I know for a fact that this world would be better without me. I masquerade as a Good Person but it's a farce.

I just want to go away and help everyone out.

I'm sorry to be so negative. I don't even know what I want or need.

Any advice would be appreciated.
 
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Roseessa

Well-known member
Joined
Jul 11, 2018
Messages
106
Location
Nottingham
I think you should give therapy a try, just keep in mind the first therapist might not be the right one for you.
Are you on any antidepressants?
Don't be sorry about being negative, this is a safe place where you can be honest and so you don't need to be sorry for saying how you really feel.
 
restlessthoughts

restlessthoughts

Member
Joined
Nov 7, 2019
Messages
13
Location
Brazil
Hey y'all
First of all, nice to meet you! I hope I can help at least one person feel better!

I hate to reach out like this but I don't know what to do. My depression has been getting precipitously worse. I barely got myself to work today. Which, of course, made me feel like an even worse person. I know I need therapy badly, but I don't feel worth it? I'm really just wishing that I didn't exist.

[Trigger warning maybe]
I figure there are actual bad people in the world, right? Every time I go to therapy I mention that I'm a Bad Person. I don't have hard evidence, I just feel it in my bones. I know that I'm a bad person. I know for a fact that this world would be better without me. I masquerade as a Good Person but it's a farce.

I just want to go away and help everyone out.

I'm sorry to be so negative. I don't even know what I want or need.

Any advice would be appreciated.
you described how I feel
 
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