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[Callum_Edgar]

I can't do this anymore. Im sick and tired of feeling like this its so fucking annoying. Every single day i question myself to why i even fucking exist because i never do anything right im just useless. I can't go out because i see everyone as my enemy and i know there criticising me and i can't handle it. I watched a home video of me earlier when i was 8 and i kept thinking what fucking happened to me for me to go from being a happy child to becoming a fucking idiot who's isolated in there house. There is nothing positive i can think of to make myself feel better its all just one big fucking mess. I look at people on tv who can go out and act like themselves and be all happy having good times with there friends and i can't even step outside my fucking door incase the neighbours see me i really hate my life and if it doesn't improve soon im just gonna fukking end it because im sick of this shit going on and on and on i just want to be normal.

 

[Dollit]

Callum - I understand your frustration and rage, I really do. I often think of the young teenage with so much promise and I don't even get to work for a living anymore. But rage and frustration have to be dealt with appropriately and it might be better not to swear quite so much on the open forum - if I want to have a good swear (which is most days) I do it in a private message. I'm more concerned though that you seem to be seeing one huge mess when a lot of the time it's several things all jumbled up together and that by just doing one thing and one thing only it's possible to start making some sense. I don't know where you should start but make it something small and manageable.

 

[Callum_Edgar]

I apologize for the swearing everyone.

 

[Dollit]

Don't worry about it Callum keep on posting.

 

[sandybob]

sorry you're feeling so rubbish at the moment callum ...

 

[telemetry9]

callum

hi callum

I can relate to a lot of how you are feeling. I'm also incredibly angry with everything and everyone at the moment. But I just stay quiet and hide it from my family as it scares me how intensely I dislike everything right now.

I know my medication isn't working and the depression has got me in its full grasp right now.

With the right medication maybe things would be easier and less painful?

I don't have any great words of advice.

telemetry

 

[telemetry9]

I'm going to phone my doctor during the week and ask for new medication. I feel pretty desperate and very much on my own.

 

[Dollit]

Telemetry tell the doctor about the anger and exactly how you're feeling. I know you've heard all this before but the more you say the better it is. And the right medication does make a lot of difference. Vent off here, we all do it and it's safe.

 

[telemetry9]

Thank you.

 

[Louise 28]

I didnt see how long you'd been on your med's for, but some can take a while to get completley into your system- but like the other replies said- do tell your doctor/psych, because sometimes they need to adjust the doses, or put you on different strains of medicine.