- Mar 20, 2008
I can't do this anymore. Im sick and tired of feeling like this its so fucking annoying. Every single day i question myself to why i even fucking exist because i never do anything right im just useless. I can't go out because i see everyone as my enemy and i know there criticising me and i can't handle it. I watched a home video of me earlier when i was 8 and i kept thinking what fucking happened to me for me to go from being a happy child to becoming a fucking idiot who's isolated in there house. There is nothing positive i can think of to make myself feel better its all just one big fucking mess. I look at people on tv who can go out and act like themselves and be all happy having good times with there friends and i can't even step outside my fucking door incase the neighbours see me i really hate my life and if it doesn't improve soon im just gonna fukking end it because im sick of this shit going on and on and on i just want to be normal.