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foleyaxle

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Hello all,

Just joined this tonight.

I wonder if someone can assist as to what is going on in my mind.

When i'm out if for example i see a woman i keep thinking and envisioning that i'm going to touch her inappropriately and then i think omg i'm going to be fooked if i did that better not do that and then the thought becomes bigger and bigger.

Same happens if i see a child i get the thought of "omg if i touch that kid everyone will think i'm a pedophile and my life will be over"

or an animal i envision i'm going to stomp on it and kill it almost like subconciously.

I get visions of begging someone to give me their money and help me.

I get envisions of begging a woman to be my girlfriend and go out with me like i'm desperate.

I feel like i want to say really really bad things to people verbally and by text but again i know this is all wrong but the compulsion is very strong.

I look at my dog and think he's the most wonderful dog in the world and the next thought is of me harming it.

I feel like i'm going to say something very embaressing do something ebaressing or bad all the time and make a total fool of myself.

At home i seem to re enact by myself like i'm having a conversation with that person in a room detailing everything i'm going to say but i know its not real but i seem to re enact it.

What is this, anxiety, schizophrenia ????

I still have a reasonably good social life, I keep myself in great shape, I work, got money, got my own house but i don't understand where these compulsions are coming from.

thanks.
 
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bpd2020

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Hello and welcome to the forum. I am no expert but it sounds like you may have OCD that causes intrusive thoughts. I think it would be really helpful for you to tell your doctor what is going on so you can get some support.
 
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foleyaxle

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I seem to create scenarios in my head that probably will never happen and ask myself how will i deal with it and then it gives me anxiety for example if i park my car and someone scratches it with their car door will i have the guts to say something and if i do what will happen etc. What will i do in a fight, will i have the guts to protect my friend, or girlfriend if i don't they she will think i'm a coward.
 
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Lukcy2019

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Hello all,

Just joined this tonight.

I wonder if someone can assist as to what is going on in my mind.

When i'm out if for example i see a woman i keep thinking and envisioning that i'm going to touch her inappropriately and then i think omg i'm going to be fooked if i did that better not do that and then the thought becomes bigger and bigger.

Same happens if i see a child i get the thought of "omg if i touch that kid everyone will think i'm a pedophile and my life will be over"

or an animal i envision i'm going to stomp on it and kill it almost like subconciously.

I get visions of begging someone to give me their money and help me.

I get envisions of begging a woman to be my girlfriend and go out with me like i'm desperate.

I feel like i want to say really really bad things to people verbally and by text but again i know this is all wrong but the compulsion is very strong.

I look at my dog and think he's the most wonderful dog in the world and the next thought is of me harming it.

I feel like i'm going to say something very embaressing do something ebaressing or bad all the time and make a total fool of myself.

At home i seem to re enact by myself like i'm having a conversation with that person in a room detailing everything i'm going to say but i know its not real but i seem to re enact it.

What is this, anxiety, schizophrenia ????

I still have a reasonably good social life, I keep myself in great shape, I work, got money, got my own house but i don't understand where these compulsions are coming from.

thanks.
Hi

Sorry to hear that you are experiencing these symptoms. I can't believe that I finally found someone with similar symptoms as me. I've been taking meds on/off for many years which didn't help so I decided to come off, which was very hard and challenging.
Thank you
 
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