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JAWG
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- Sep 7, 2008
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Hi everyone. This is very strange. Never done anything like this before. Desperation I guess! I split up with my girlfriend 8 weeks ago and have fallen into the blackest hole I've ever known. Been depressed 5 times in the last 10 years but this feels the worst. I've tried all the help etc been in and out of hospital but now it seems that even they don't want me. Living at my dads is tough. All I seem to do is survive smoking and reading but nothing makes it go away. I find it so hard to accept the rejection.. that she doesn't want me.. all that's left is me and i'm so scared.. like there is no me and I will feel like this for ever. Suicide is constantly over me but I can't do that to my kids.. but feel like i'm just delaying the inevitable. Help!::drool