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Matthewr040989
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Hello
I am bipolar 1.
Recently friends and family have been acting strange around me. I lived a terrible lifestyle un medicated for the last few year. Refusing help and drinking, drugs and womanizing.
The last three month I have been On mirtazepine then on to Olanzipine.
I came clean with my issues and tried to get therapy and medication, but with covid it's been limited.
Anyway I'm clean and sober and taking my meds. But people have been acting quite harsh to me.
My partner found out some how about my womanizing, but instead of asking directly she just hints with the women's names. Now she is quoting me from private calls I have had. When I pull her up she just says it's all in my head. I have asked if she wants to end it, but point blank refuses to address it. "Its all in your head"
Now I had a SIM card for a new phone, but it's dissaprared. "Must of got lost" also today my medication is missing, it's quite a bit wrapped but it's gone.
I had a suicide attempt last year and a few weeks ago, I ran out the house suicidal after a bad dream with the intention to end my own life. It all blew over and I have been trying to hold my chin up. By she has mentioned suicide, even put an implement for harm in a bed next to me and played a song off her phone quickly, the song had mentions of losing your mind.
Am I just joining dots that arnt there or is there something.
I know it might be a weak explanation, but she's never been like this before.
Thanks In advance
I am bipolar 1.
Recently friends and family have been acting strange around me. I lived a terrible lifestyle un medicated for the last few year. Refusing help and drinking, drugs and womanizing.
The last three month I have been On mirtazepine then on to Olanzipine.
I came clean with my issues and tried to get therapy and medication, but with covid it's been limited.
Anyway I'm clean and sober and taking my meds. But people have been acting quite harsh to me.
My partner found out some how about my womanizing, but instead of asking directly she just hints with the women's names. Now she is quoting me from private calls I have had. When I pull her up she just says it's all in my head. I have asked if she wants to end it, but point blank refuses to address it. "Its all in your head"
Now I had a SIM card for a new phone, but it's dissaprared. "Must of got lost" also today my medication is missing, it's quite a bit wrapped but it's gone.
I had a suicide attempt last year and a few weeks ago, I ran out the house suicidal after a bad dream with the intention to end my own life. It all blew over and I have been trying to hold my chin up. By she has mentioned suicide, even put an implement for harm in a bed next to me and played a song off her phone quickly, the song had mentions of losing your mind.
Am I just joining dots that arnt there or is there something.
I know it might be a weak explanation, but she's never been like this before.
Thanks In advance
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