- Feb 8, 2015
Hello, I am writing this post in hopes that some people will be able to relate or give advise on the symptoms and medications I am involved with. I was diagnosed with Bipolar over 15 years ago and have been on multiple medications. I feel as though my Bipolar was well kept in check until recently. I had a nervous breakdown 2 years ago while suffering from some trauma and a bad living environment that I was hospitalized for just over a week to quickly recover from my breakdown. Prior to the hospitalization I was on a small amount of medication (Abilify and that was it.) After leaving the hospital I was then on Abilify (still), Olanzapine (or Zyprexa), Concerta (for my newly diagnosed ADHD) and Welbutrin (i guess for depression symptoms). So I saw myself go from 1 medication to four medications in just over a week. Prior to the nervous breakdown and the hospitalization my mind felt great. I was getting great grades and doing well. But ever since that nervous breakdown and hospitalization I have felt like my mind has been too inactive and lacking the intelligence and skills I used to have. For example, I constantly lose focus at work and sort of zone out when I'm doing something. When I zone out I kind of go in this blank stare where my mind feels like it is on auto-pilot. I'll still be doing what I was doing but I'll be staring in a certain direction all while my mind feels like it is blank. Another example would be just prior to this post I was working on music and I couldn't remain focused on the task I would keep doing the same thing I would go in this blank stare and my body would go on auto-pilot. It feels like it happens so many times during the day that it is in need of extreme attention. Now I haven't been on my concerta medication for a while I stopped that cold turkey due to insurance issues. I'm not sure if it is ADHD or some form of epilepsy because it sounds like some form of seizure from what I've read on the internet. But these constant zone-outs are the recurring theme here. I haven't really had bipolar symptoms in a while but these zone-outs have occurred often. Now I also haven't seen a psychiatrist in months which I'm thinking of going back to one. If anyone can relate to what I am saying or give advice I would well appreciate it.