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im_broken
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Im a female and going through a similar situation,my older sister and i were abused together as a child by a family friend( she was also a female) and in turn i abused my younger sister and now i have terrible thoughts that i may be a paedophile, while my thoughts rarely involve me harming anyone. I dont get arroused by children i came out as a lesbian but i still have these very compulsive thoughts that wont let me live. Ive read all the comments and even the article "wicked thoughts" that was mentioned [Moderator note: this post has been moved into it's own thread]. I know I was a victim and as a child i dont think i really understood what was happening because my older sister and i experiment for so long after the abuse, i really just thought it was normal until i got a bit older and realized it was terrible what happened to all of us.. i am now scarred for life and i dont know how to cope anymore. I cry and get anxiety all the time its scary and shameful, i would never harm a child or any person for that matter but why am i feeling like i dont deserve to live.
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