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Ihavecoffee
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Hello I've been feeling bad for the past 8 years but I still have not reached any sort of clarity about my situation.
Normally I feel anxious and incredibly restless, I feel like I HAVE to do something and i connect this feeling to various things like doing homework or cleaning up my house but also thing that i would normally enjoy like playing computer games or instruments. The feeling is something like "I HAVE to do this", "I have to do it fast", "I'm almost there" and/or "It has to be great". The feeling is something like a mix of panic, anxiety and exhilaration and when I'm caught up in it I have a hard time telling if its a good or a bad feeling.
When I manage to break free of this feeling(usually by meditating, listening to music, smoking or just trying not to think), I feel empty and a bit sad but overall more stable and clearheaded.
When I'm in "calm mode" and try to do something about the sadness and emptiness it usually kick starts my anxiety again and the circle repeats.
Other things that kick starts my anxiety include obligations, people and just thinking.
Does anyone recognize themselves in this or anyone else who sees a pattern I do not because I've been trying to figure this out for 8 years and have not made any significant progress.
My most recent theory dictates that my anxiety come from me trying to avoid aspects of myself that I subconsciously will not allow, such as feeling sad and weak and not being the best at something.
Give me your two cents plz.
Normally I feel anxious and incredibly restless, I feel like I HAVE to do something and i connect this feeling to various things like doing homework or cleaning up my house but also thing that i would normally enjoy like playing computer games or instruments. The feeling is something like "I HAVE to do this", "I have to do it fast", "I'm almost there" and/or "It has to be great". The feeling is something like a mix of panic, anxiety and exhilaration and when I'm caught up in it I have a hard time telling if its a good or a bad feeling.
When I manage to break free of this feeling(usually by meditating, listening to music, smoking or just trying not to think), I feel empty and a bit sad but overall more stable and clearheaded.
When I'm in "calm mode" and try to do something about the sadness and emptiness it usually kick starts my anxiety again and the circle repeats.
Other things that kick starts my anxiety include obligations, people and just thinking.
Does anyone recognize themselves in this or anyone else who sees a pattern I do not because I've been trying to figure this out for 8 years and have not made any significant progress.
My most recent theory dictates that my anxiety come from me trying to avoid aspects of myself that I subconsciously will not allow, such as feeling sad and weak and not being the best at something.
Give me your two cents plz.