Help please I can’t stand this anymore

B

BW1

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So I’ve been a hypochondriac and ocd sufferer as long as I remember. I have lots of anxiety and fears. Last September A thought popped into my mind if the phone rings in 30 minutes I must harm my mother. And the phone rung. I was petrified that this is a sign, kind of magical thinking, can’t stop worrying since then can’t enjoy life can’t wirk life has become unsupportable. I went to a psychotherapist she told me yes it’s a sign to change the things you do and your every day life but in my mind popped another idea that she said it’s a sign to harm your mom kinda like false memory. She reassured me plenty of times that she never said that but in my mind feels real. I’m in my wits end I can’t stop thinking the thought 24/7 I’ve lost all joy in life all I wanna do is stay in bed I struggle to go to work my life is ruined any help would be appreciated
 
Kaze

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Hi Brandon, sorry to hear you're not feeling great right now

Firstly, your life is not ruined. What your going through has the power to be only temporary. How you deal with it will decide how you come out of it at the end.

Are you into reading? read up on Greek philosophy and check out great psychological thinkers like Sigmund Freud to better understand your psyche and why you are the way you are. You're special, unique, and you have the ability to take control of your life.

Your psychologist was probably right, you probably do need to make some changes in your life.. but hiding away from the world (although totally understandable) is not the healthy way forward. If i can give you some reassurance id say you're not alone with those kinds of passing thoughts.. its not abnormal, it's just unhealthy to dwell on them.
 
LivinWithAnxiety

LivinWithAnxiety

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Hi Brandon,

Real sorry to hear about your strange coincidence and obsessions. I've been diagnosed with OCD myself. In a few of my more difficult and dark times, I just tried to remember that our minds are like waterfalls of thoughts, and though we can't flip a switch and turn it off, I strongly believe that over time, with effort, we can alter the proportion of negative and obsessive/compulsive thoughts and start to experience healthier thinking patterns. I just think we need to make time for the change by being patient and also make the effort. After all, mental illness is nothing but a state of mind, and I think a lot of modern treatment methods would agree that the mistake we who are anxious make is we identify with our bad thoughts instead of 'holding them gently and letting them go', or maybe observing them from a distance without getting attached. :) It's not easy though I know and I think we gotta find the desire deep inside to get better!