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cranialdamage

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I was walking down the trail today and as soon as I step out my door the thoughts race, when I got to the trail I started walking and non stop my mind will begin to talk to me. like talking all inside my head with someone who is not even there, I was walking alone for example telling my brother oh I bought this shirt it was 20 dollars but then I got 50 percent off and the guy who sold it to me said blah blah blah, and then I saw this guy at the supermarket blah. blah and then my mind will begin to go on random access memory and start hearing things that people have told me in the past, plus hearing the voice in my head imagining them saying oh he is really not ok he must have done some kind of meth last time we saw him he was really not ok. its like a whole bunch of people memories are living in my mind and my mind is not mine it feels like its a place where all of these people I know live and my own voice starts chattering with the memories of what they have said, may say in the future or mean things they will never say. But its like my mind is in conflict with something that dosent even exist. its also trivial and racing thoughts as well as annoying repetitive thoughts like everyday when I wake up, my mind immediately starts rehashing yesterday like what my family said what I saw in the internet and im not sure what else but it never stops racing. Every single time I get in the shower I cant relax and my mind won't stop talking. I deal with this all day every day for years. Please I didn't come here for someone to tell me talk to your doctor or psychologist are helpful or none of this. I have been in therapy year and have tried countless medicines.
I just want to know if anybody has similar experiences.
like if you hear voices frequently or throughout the day at certain points?
and if you guys have racing thoughts all day?
is your mind ever quiet?
Maybe if anything helps you? like staring at the computer all day surfing web helps me a lot if not id be crazy and wanna die.
 
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cranialdamage

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Hey thanks orangeade do you relate to any of this?
 
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