- Apr 12, 2020
im sorry youre having such a rough time. An admission to a psych hospita; might be beneficial......ask your psychiatrist, if you havent a psychiatrist make haste and get one.Since my childhood, I have had to deal with a lot by myself. I couldn't talk to anyone and I kept so much to myself. I'm now an adult and I feel hopeless as ever. Few of years ago I met with an accident which left me with lasting effects. I'm struggling to deal with this and I have distanced myself from everyone that cares about me. I see no hope and my job is making me very anxious as I have to deal with a lot of people. I see no end to this suffering and I can't talk to anyone. My family is highly dependent on me and I have to put on a brave face for everyone. I'm constantly so restless and I find no enjoyment in anything. I absolutely hate myself and always worry about my actions and what others might think about me. I have no one to talk to.
I keep thinking about how death would be a relief. But I can't do that to my family. I feel trapped, hopeless and really sad