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babs
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Hi everyone im new on here and not sure whats happening to me
i have suffered from "depression" for many years now like from i was 14 and now 24 durning that time i have had what i think looking back manic episodes to the pont i havened know what iv been doing or who i am, very voilatil and throwing heavy objects like they where paper, and have even had 4 suide attemps in that time i was seeing and hearing things that just wasnt there (or so im told) as i though my exboyfriend was trying to wreak my head, i then turned to drink and was cheating on my ex a lot as my sex drive was through the roof and then when i got depressed again i turned to cocaine just to make me feel "normal"
now its happening again only this time me and my current partner father of my 2 kids is going to leave because i want sex 24/7 and have spent £2000 in 2 months on clothes that has not been needed and am fighting with him throwing tables at him and just losing myself, in fact it got so bad that i was in a taxi going nuts (as i have been told) and pulled the steering wheel from him and near put the car in a wall at high speed, he then took me to the hospial but was let out the next day with antidressants, i was so scared when i heard about this as this is not me at all, and now i have crashed with a bang to the point i want to sit on a lit fire and the only thing i am thinking about id suidue
im very concerened cause my cpn (mental health nurse) thinks i may be bipolar and then another nurse saw me and said she thing im boarderline personality disorder my p.doc thinks its depression but want to keep in close contact to moniter my moods just in case, but why have i been perscribed a cocktail of meds : trazadone 150mg, zopiclone 7.5mg respardol 0.5mg twice daily and diaziepam 5 mg twice a day, what is going on with me and my docs and nurse all have a different opion and why am i on all this for just "depression" help please any advice would be great and anyone with the same kinda experanice
if you have got this far thanks for reading and please responed lol
i have suffered from "depression" for many years now like from i was 14 and now 24 durning that time i have had what i think looking back manic episodes to the pont i havened know what iv been doing or who i am, very voilatil and throwing heavy objects like they where paper, and have even had 4 suide attemps in that time i was seeing and hearing things that just wasnt there (or so im told) as i though my exboyfriend was trying to wreak my head, i then turned to drink and was cheating on my ex a lot as my sex drive was through the roof and then when i got depressed again i turned to cocaine just to make me feel "normal"
now its happening again only this time me and my current partner father of my 2 kids is going to leave because i want sex 24/7 and have spent £2000 in 2 months on clothes that has not been needed and am fighting with him throwing tables at him and just losing myself, in fact it got so bad that i was in a taxi going nuts (as i have been told) and pulled the steering wheel from him and near put the car in a wall at high speed, he then took me to the hospial but was let out the next day with antidressants, i was so scared when i heard about this as this is not me at all, and now i have crashed with a bang to the point i want to sit on a lit fire and the only thing i am thinking about id suidue
im very concerened cause my cpn (mental health nurse) thinks i may be bipolar and then another nurse saw me and said she thing im boarderline personality disorder my p.doc thinks its depression but want to keep in close contact to moniter my moods just in case, but why have i been perscribed a cocktail of meds : trazadone 150mg, zopiclone 7.5mg respardol 0.5mg twice daily and diaziepam 5 mg twice a day, what is going on with me and my docs and nurse all have a different opion and why am i on all this for just "depression" help please any advice would be great and anyone with the same kinda experanice
if you have got this far thanks for reading and please responed lol