
Carol1952
Well-known member
I have been so sick with anxieties and depression, and my mood disorder is also bothering me,first it was because my eyes were watering so much it caused me a lot of mental pain I wake up with anxieties,dont really want to eat but I have to because I am hungry then there are times i eat like crazy and I dont have to.MY shrinks office is closed so they will talk to me on the phone now i am afraid I wont get my meds.Especially my klonopin it is a controlled drug and Telemedicine is taking care of things .I dont know if they will let me get my meds.I mean they say u have to visit his office how can I do that he is closed i know he is going to call me so it is the same darn thing.I am yelling crying feeling shaky because of this stinken virus it has caused me a lot of grief.I dont go out cannot anyway I have agoraphobia.I am so scared of everything yes even after the pharmacy said i should get my meds.I still cant relax and my doctor as usual is taking his sweet time which is making me sick with depression and anxieties.I cannot evne visit with my best friend she is working because she has no choice she delivers meals and drives the elderly around she did stay with me for about a half hour and believe me it helped.She makes me feel better always has.She wants to help but she doesnt know how.Now I called the pharmacy the doctor still hasnt called them in .I know he has a lot of patients but he is making me sick by not calling in my meds.I do feel better when I am on the pc.I do surveys and make money talk to a couple of ,my email friends.My friend cannot live here .I feel so alone.This virus has ruined my life.Cannot even see my grandchildren my mental illness has gotten worse.I just came here to talk to someone. Being alone stinks.Boy could i ever use a hug now.Cant even do that.I have been emailing my daughter she is trying to help but she really doesnt understand she is being really nice about this too.She never hardly talks to me then there is my son,well he never has time for me and I have no family left, I miss my mom and dad of course I cannot talk to them and I am so angry with god right now.I feel like he gave me this illness.I keep on praying and nothing is working some nights when i cannot sleep I yell and scream because I cant take it anymore.It is really annoying .HOwever I am still here because I am not ready to die.Between my allergies.depression,mood swings,worrying about my meds crying and this virus I feel like I am going crazy.JUst need someone to talk to.Help me please sorry this was so long but this is the way I am feeling.